my-prismicsoul

2012-02-11T01:34:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 59TH.

(a week late.supposed to be on the 5th Feb)

we're close to less than a month till this relationship grows another month older and it also means we'll be together for already five years.each time i gave up in this relationship,you would always be there fighting to keep it strong as before.i'm glad that we've made this far although we had a lot of fights in between.we shared too much of happiness too.those were the times that i'll cherish.just like this evening.it's been awhile i laughed that hard.thanks for the drink anyway :) not many would really know what we had in the past but they don't matter because i've got you.to those who knew,they would be like 'i'll bet they'll never make it" but hey,look at us,we're still holding on and we're still together going strong.i'm seriously not good at words or to express it here.just so you know,i really love you and i hope we can make this relationship lasts.*Insya'Allah

thank you so much for every single thing,Khairul Mubin B Mohd Amin <3<3<3

yeap,the only guy whom i can act silly with because i just feel comfortable and he accepts my flaws.

i accept you for who you are even if you're a diabetic.counting down to the number of days you're going to leave me for 8 days :< i'll miss you and i'll promise i wont make the history repeats itself.

p. s i love you .

2012-02-04T00:59:00.000+08:00

COUNTING DOWN TO THE NUMBER OF DAYS TO GET MY FIXED BIKE!

end of this month,Insya'Allah :)

in need of sexy thighs because i'm too skinny,kidding!

so how y'all doing?i got the inspiration from James Noah Mcguiness (@JayTheWanted) so yeap thanks to him!

was reading the mailer just now and he kept using y'all.trying to be in American slang.lol.

they've been touring around US of A and that explained everything.they also made a video on trying to speak in American and i learnt a bit of British slang language.they really nicked my heart,aww.

watched a video on them when they were in NYC and glad that they really have come this far and of course,i'm proud of them!alright,that's enough.

life has not been so good but yeap,i appreciate people who are around me especially mum and boyfriend.the only two who understand me a lot even though we fought at times.i was nearly to death the last week and i ran away.lately,boyfriend has been accompanying me by meeting me after our school hours which really helped me a lot about forgetting my mini trauma i had.i really do have it till today.it's serious matter that i think i need to consult to someone but it's okay.i feel safe for now because boyfriend is around.whatever it is,even if we met for an hour,i did cherish and appreciate that moment.glad to have him by my side.i wouldn't want to ask more.as for mum,no matter what happens i'll stick with her through thick and thin.

i love her more than anything else.if it happened again,i'll follow her wherever she goes.

i'm done with all tests except for one and that will be the last test before sitting for the exams in March.time flies so fast.it's like a month more before i sit for my exams and after 1 month of holiday,i'll be in year 2.le sigh.really need to pull up my gpa because i heard my final year is going to be more stressful.

bleargh!

that's all folks.sorry for not been updating.wanted to update last week but because of what had happened,i decided not to.i didnt want to and i think it would be better if i just let it all out to someone so i already did.

heh.have a nice weekends.oh yes,Alhamdulilah because i'm collecting my bursary later.need to sleep now.

goodnight!xx

2012-01-20T23:50:00.001+08:00

well finally............everyone has been waiting for the long weekends :)

what a fatigue week.

i'm done with my Writing For Biz Report and surprisingly,she said most probably most of us can get an 'A' or a 'B'.a good news,i guess?

up next will be cracking my brains for Service Excellence CA3 Roleplay script.

and after that i'll be sitting for the exams.i found my CA1 Roleplay result and i scored quite well.Alhamdulilah :)

gotta keep up this good grades till exams!

hmm,this coming Monday gonna have a barbeque with family and not sure if bf would come down.

speaking of him,he's going China for 8 days on 10th March.

oh god,save me please! :( i cant imagine that.furthermore,we wont have a proper celebration for our 5th anniversary because on that week itself i'll be having exams and on the 9th i end my paper but he's going on the 10th.i did something for him.not too sure if he likes it :/

errr that's all for today.need to sleep because there's tuition in the morning.bleargh! shall go through correction of errors :) need to be a good girl lol.

goodnight xx

2012-01-13T22:23:00.000+08:00

happy twfanmily friday!

& cheers to the freakin' weekend! >.<

oh yes finally the weekends are here.

hmm it's only the first week of school and i'm fatigue.

what more just had a test this afternoon and i gave up on the last question.as expected,it'd be harder than the previous test.anyway,i really hate my school system.i mean they're not going to return us our test papers.so tell me how are we going to learn from our mistakes?dafug.

kay shall just pray for the best and focus on the rest + exams.le dies.

9 more weeks to school before the next vacation comes.bleargh~

anyway i'm planning to rant about my favourite boyband.yes,i know i did a lot in my twitter.

but that's not enough.lol.alright,first of all i'm proud of them.they were invited to Ellen's show.yeap,saw that video above?you know how lucky those audience there?my dear Nathan James Sykes,you sang to her,you hugged her.oh no :/ but i don't mind.i believe one day,yes that one faithful day,i will get to meet you.

and one faithful day,i'll get a tweet from one of the lads or may be they'll even follow me.it's kind of heartbreaking to see my tl when i saw my cousin/juniors got replied from them but it's okay.my time will come,that's for sure! c: *cheering myself up

oh hohoho speaking of that,it reminded me of their wantedwednesday's mailer!bad ass naked photo.be jelly,not.i'm jealous of Jay's drawing skills.trolololol.

i promise i'll upload here at the end of my rants.teehee >.<

The Wanted is going up.i mean,their names are slowly growing and fans are increasing.this is insane but i'll still love them!how can i not be proud of you,The Wanted?

they're releasing TWDolls and also i need to get a copy of WeLovePop magazine!!!!!! 68 pages interview on them + 12 posters!!!!!!!

Y U NO SELL IN SG?le sigh..........

I LAAAAAAVE YOU,THE WANTED!

*Jay's accent

Them at the Ellen's Show!

Rehearsing!

Oh finally,NAKED! :p

this was happened when i was already too bored in class.this was during Writing For Biz class.

oh yeah,i'm glad you came....<3

toodles

2012-01-08T19:47:00.002+08:00

things are not like what i wanted.this is bad kay.it's only first month of the year.whatever it is,i kno i'm the one to blame.i kno i'm the cause of everything and because of me,things are just in mess right now.

i'm tired myself.i'm just letting things to flow by itself for now.

at times like this,i'm glad i found The Wanted.well at least there's someone who can put a smile on my face without faking it.yes they won't know i'm exist but it's okay.guess what is trending now worldwide on twitter?#TWentyTWelveTheYearForTW

i'm proud of them.they'll be performing GYC on the Ellen show on Tues but i aint sure when it'd be air here.it's okay.we have this thing called Youtube c: besides that,they're coming to Singapore soon after their tour at Australia.omg how can i not be ex-sykes-ted?!hehehe and some said most probably in April.*ehem*

it's my 19th birthday on the 29th April.come on guys!make it happen,please :P kay nah.as long you're coming here soon,i'm fine with it.you guys have been a great companion eventho it's only thru virtually but i still love you guys so much.it also doesnt stop me from mentioning their names on twitter.i know someday they will know i exist.i really salute these guys.all the best in this industry and i'll forever support you guys no matter what happens.hope to see you here soon!xx

school starts tomorrow but i thought of giving a miss because i'm still not feeling well.

backbone is another problem.so yeap,i got myself into the hospital again yesterday because half of my body couldnt move.for a second,i thought i died.le sigh le cries.

well when school starts,not much of fangirling and fanfics for me.boooooooo!

and deep down inside,i miss you so much.i know it's my fault but i still dont know how to make it up to you.

i know it's time for me to fight for this if i wanted our love to stay.

but i really don't know :'( i'm in so much pain.mum scolded me for something and all i needed was you but we had a tiff too.on the other hand,i'm feeling much guilty and want to be left alone.idknooooooooooooooo :<

2012-01-01T21:29:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 2012 TO EVERYONE AROUND THE GLOBE!

FIRST POST OF 2012.

not into update anything yet.yeap some things happened.

will update by tomorrow maybe or this week.

hope you had a blast!

may all of you have a great year ahead.

people change.dramas.laughters.cries.

life goes on :)

2011-12-27T14:38:00.000+08:00

good afternoon readers!

how was your loooooong weekends?

well i had a great one!yeap with family of course and also boyf.so basically on weekdays,he would cycle to my place and we had lunch then sat somewhere and played games at my phone,listened to songs,random talks,laughed and yes,that was it.

Christmas Eve (Sat) - grandm's house/planned activities for chinese new year's holidays/finally met with cousin brother!
Christmas Day (Sun) - hohoho/boyf woke up late.he was still snoozing when we were supposed to meet at 11am.kay nevermind then we boarded 99 and 105 to town and walked from Ion to Somerset to get his flannel shirt.spent about 3 hours with him and we had to parted our ways to meet our families.i had to go Yishun while he had to go Expo.i went for a swim for about 2 hours and we played bowling in the evening.
Public Holiday (Mon) - to Queensway with family to get my high-cut sneakers then had lunch at Ayam Penyet Ria,Lucky Plaza.walked to Far East Plaza since mum needed to get some stuffs.in the afternoon,met boyf and had PizzaHut at Jurong Point.shopped for stationery too and the queue was really loooooooooooong.he sent me home after that :)

no plans for today but i've started with my Writing For Biz's assignment.damn,i hate school.no,i don't hate studying.i just dont like the environment plus the travelling time,only He knows.

the thought of it's going to reopen in 2 weeks' time made me argh!i lost mood for school.anything related to school.kay shall just stfu now.le sigh.

stay tune for next updates xxxxxx

2011-12-19T18:33:00.002+08:00

hello lads!

yes every time i switch on my laptop,they will stare at me.

hehe okay no :P

it's been raining 3 days straight and there's not much plan.boyf,can i follow you to Pulau Ubin tmr? :/

i want to do some leisure activities and also finish up my assignments this holidays.

lately all i did was stay at home and watched The Wanted's videos.well at least there's an entertainment.heh.

anyway singaporeans are busy buzzing about public transport issues for the past few days.well why make your life so hard?go and have your own vehicle then or ride a bicycle is much more better because it'll save the mother earth and just stfu la.bleargh!

these people just don't think of others.excuse me,we're just grateful to have public transports which can take us to anywhere.

this reminded me of a documentary i watched a few days ago about a 10 year old boy who lives right beside a dump site with his family in Jakarta.guess what they have for their meals?

yes all those waste.they picked it up the foods that we threw,they washed it and cooked it.imagine that,just imagine how hard their lives must be.for once,be thankful people for what you have here and stop complaining.

met boyf for awhile just now and he accompanied me having lunch.it was drizzling but he still insisted to cycle here so yeap!he got home on time because it started to rain heavily.thanks hun <3

alright i'm done.basically i have nothing else to do so i decided to update my blog.

stay tune for more xx.

2011-12-15T15:38:00.001+08:00

it was another day at the same place after 3 months.

meeting nath,tom,seev,jay and max virtually.

we were there a few hours before 1600 and it was really worth the wait.

we managed to stand quite near to the screen.

i screamed,i sang along.

what more could i ask?

that was the best thing i've ever did because i was down.

specially thanks to the girls who came with me and also The Wanted themselves who made my day.

but now i'm emo-ing to their songs :'<

on repeat now: Lie To Me & Dagger

Dagger is in the deluxe album and i should have bought one.sigh.

oh maybe with my current situation/mood,Dagger is just nice.well even if its not,the song is really naise.

Dear The Wanted,when will all of you come back to Singapore?Sincerely,your true TWFanmily from Singapore xx

been spending my day watching The Wanted's videos,tumblr-ing,9GAG-ing.
must i really forget about this weekend's plan?i.am.suck.at.planning.an.outing.
yes i should.the class is not cooperating at all.
so tell me what should i do for the rest of the days?i just want to spend it like how i spent it during my previous one but someone left.

booooooooooo! till here then,see you all folks! xx

everytime you have to go,i don't think you even know.
everytime you have leave,can't believe it cuts so deep.
it's like a dagger in my heart~

2011-12-09T21:57:00.001+08:00

in another life,i would make you stay.

so i don't have to say you're the one that go away.

so here i am down w/ flu,feeling a little bit of depressed.har har why?because i didnt win the passes to chat one on one with The Wanted.anyway idk how the hell i could have this flu out of sudden.must be the weather sigh.i hope i will get well before this wed.i want/need to enjoy the partayyyyy!

today was the last day of school and all i did was 2 questions on stock valuation within an hour.so the other half,i relax and the other half,he let us off to have breakfast.the next lesson,he gave us short briefing for CA2 and the next and last lesson,took attendance and went off :) what a short short short day.everyone was in holiday mood.from there,i took the train all the way till Boon Lay and met sister and also cousin then bus-ed 198 to Queensway to collect our TW's tee.finally we had Ben&Jerry at Vivo and back home :)

hope to have a nice weekends coming ahead.i really should enjoy to the fullest for the first 2 weeks of my holidays and get back to my holiday assignments and mug for CA2 on the last 2 weeks of my holidays.

boohoo :< i want to get over with all this soon!at the same time,i would want to proceed to Yr 2 with a good gpa sigh.

recently,there was a tiff between me and ................. sometimes i wish i could really end this and see them together.no one would just understand me.no one.i don't share my feelings to others.i don't share my pain to others.i keep it all by myself.no one was there for me when i needed one unlike you.i cried myself to sleep just to forget the pain and get back normal the next day.i'd rather be alone,y'kno.

there's a lot i want to share with you but you don't seem to listen.damn,just forget it.i would want to see how far can we stay like this because my instincts said..........................

alright shall not trust my instinct but it is usually true.how?

ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffug this feeling ok?

i had enough w/ being mad at people.yes even w/ some of my classmates.

enough of this.i would really want to end my 2011 w/ good things not these.

i have important dates to look out for! skype w/ my favourite irish british boyband,The Wanted and also,picnic w/ classmates yeay!

see ya all folks x

2011-12-02T21:41:00.001+08:00

oh hello December!
sorry for going missing and not updating the blog because i had CA1 and now i'm done w/ it.
Alhamdulilah,i did very well for my Intermediate Accounting and as for the rest,i'm still waiting for the results.
hey look! finally the December here which means less than a month to 2012.
:O how fast time flies?
maybe i shall summarise up my life throughout this January-November 2011 :/

so far 2011 has been such a great year for me and i hope it'll remain till the end of December.
everything was fine except for when i collected my O'levels results.it was okay to cry,right?however,after that i knew i need to move on.i had a lot of choices after sitting for my O's and i decided and entered ITE on the 11th April.
i'm taking Higher Nitec Accounting and i'm doing well so far.i did make good friends too!thank god for them because they're nice people.i mean they're those who are my type too c:
4 more months till we end our Yr 1.somebody tell me whaaaaaaaaaaaai is the time passing by so fast?! :/

well besides school.......
i've received a lot of sustenance.luck after luck came.
one of my closest uncles bought a Nokia X3-02 and HP Pavillion g4 for me!also somewhere around July,i won a HTC ChaCha handset from Singtel ^^
really appreciate for having these gadgets.
i also met w/ my most favourite English boyband which is THE WANTED live on the 17th Sept!
will be meeting them again on this 14th Dec but through webcast.(at least it is something!)
heh feeling so lucky throughout this year and i hope there's more on this December.
there were still ups and downs too but so far,everything was and is still going well.

hehehe ok till here for today.shall update again when i'm free.
i miss reading novels.i miss updating blog.i miss tumblr-ing.i miss watching movies.
bleargh shall do it during my term break which will only begins on the 10th Dec.
xx

2011-11-19T22:03:00.001+08:00

harlooooo ^^

how's your Saturday so far?

watched The Wanted's videos in the day
ceremony at Jurong West
grandm's house

well yup that was how my day.totally feeling drain after going through the week.

menses + cough + flu + fever = worse combination!

my backbone is the worse ever.i don't wish to be half-paralysed in future.

i even had to skip first lessons throughout the whole week sigh ):<

i have three more tests to go before my term break start!

lets endure this.

2011-11-13T19:12:00.001+08:00

#nowplaying Someone Like You - Adele

nothing much happened today except for sitting in front of my laptop and editing the powerpoint slides for tmr's presentation.thanks to you.i waited one whole day and kept refreshing the page just to check if you really sent but nah.if only killing isn't a sin,i'd have done that.i was so close to crying because i was just too frantic.

i even fried the fries till it burnt.just not in mood to talk to you you you you you you! except for boyf.

may be i should put a little smile because he wants to meet me tmr! even though it will be a long day in school.

just want end all these CA1s soon and everything.i want my holidays!i want to spend my days with him like how we did for the previous one :/

i feel so left out.the ones i used to help them are now forgetting me.i don't feel appreciated,yes that it is!

whenever they had problems especially about relationships,they asked help from me.

now,they left and after awhile,they'll say i was the one who forget them.i don't get it.

one by one left and i just kept it to myself simply because i didn't want to start those immature stuffs.

at the end of the day,i know i still have him by my side always.he comforts me all the time.just thankful to have him.

anyway,yesterday went RP with boyf and Syaq to watch Elna's performance but sadly we had to leave earlier because boyf had to rush home for something.before that,we had a small tiff :< but i managed to make him smile back tho hehehehe c: hmmm,i've been sick for the past few days and my voice keeps "on and off".

will stop here for now.need to rest my eyes.shall just entertain my boyf,whatsapp-ing with <3

2011-10-30T16:23:00.002+08:00

arr matey!
how's your weekends so far?hrm,i'm taking a break now from doing the project.
i do it because i want my grades so i shall just do my part.shall never ever do project with people like you anymore.you seriously a bitch.everyone seem to dislike your attitude _l_
tons of work need to be done especially from school.tests are starting this Wed and great,i'm putting it aside just for the project.shall revise it at night later.on the brighter side,i'll be having long weekends this week.
#fuckyeahlongweekends
well besides that i had a great time with boyfriend too.we met twice i guess for this week after school.
he'll forever make my cheeks hurt.we created so much noises at the void deck and also played Angry Birds.
still unbelievable that we're together for already 4 years plus :) i love you,hun.
had a great day yesterday with family.we had bbq session and also soccer.oh yar of course with Azri around,we had a lot of laughters till my stomach cramp lol.he's another joker.
what else what else what else?oh yar i've yet to go and pre-order TW's Battleground!
i could really cry if i still couldn't get it pre-order by the end of next week.where the hell is my allowance?
when i didn't really need it,they will bank in on time but when i need it so badly...........where the hell my $$$?!
ugh,so frustrating ok.i'm still owing mum,her birthday treat.omg!
errr,feels like taking a nap first before continuing with my project.yes,i should.
till here mates!
xxx~

2011-10-26T20:53:00.003+08:00

HAPPY DEEPAVALI TO ALL MY INDIANS FRIENDS OUT THERE!
i kno the day is going to end soon and the thought of going to school tomorrow makes me go 'bleargh'.
whatever it is,i enjoyed my day with my family.it's been awhile we go out.from Expo to Vivo and to West Coast Food Centre.

anyway,i didn't manage to get The Wanted's Battleground album yesterday :'<
shall get it this Sat.oh god,please.i need it so bad! hey lads,will get you soon weehee~
can't wait for your next upcoming new music video and i already listened to the preview.
hehehehe,okay people.short post will do.need to continue with my revisions.
2 more days till the weekends are back.have great days ahead~

2011-10-22T20:19:00.000+08:00

#onrepeatmode
hehehe well hello everybody.finally i managed to update this blog.had a busy week and tests are coming.
school is boring and the only modules which make me awake are Intermediate Accounting and elective module which is Managing People & Systems.i hate PM1/Writing fr Biz/SVE.
it's either the lecturers are boring or the module is just really dry and nothing much related to the course i'm taking.tsk!
anyway yesterday had tuition but instead of preparing for our tests,we watched How I Met Your Mother lol.
and finally i met boyfriend!omg only God knows how much i misses him.he's been busy with his fixie,cycled here and there.i could hardly get his reply whenever i left him a text.sadded much?yes,i am :<
and today we met again! i wish the weekends wont just go so fast.he's the only person i won't get bored easily with.we'll always have random topics to talk about.i love you always,hun.
well well The Wanted's 2nd album -Battleground will be here on 7th November! will be heading to town this Tuesday to pre-order it.yes,it is a must!oh yea by the way,school will be having Sch Of Biz day this Tuesday so we're free to wear home clothes and most probably,we'll be release early.heh okay best.
nothing much happened.basically going to school is just part of my routine and i dislike some my classmates,some modules,some lecturers.fml much ;/ i miss secondary school life.

2011-10-14T22:43:00.000+08:00

twitter is being a bitch today and i faked a smile the whole day.
thank you so much to The Wanted for at least accompanying my day throughout when i was alone.
all my plans for tomorrow just fuck up ugh.
feeling famish now.didn't have a proper meal.didn't sleep the whole of last night.
hope my immune system is staying strong.
shall rant it some other times about school stuffs=this week.
goodnight,xo.

2011-10-08T21:32:00.001+08:00

wk one of school ended and that was fast and i'm feeling really exhausted :<

class tests are starting soon.this semester's modules are much harder.

here i am trying my best to cope with everything.the bestest part of all is doing project and i hate it.

okay,shall not rant it here because i think it's dangerous but i already let it out to Mubin.

hmm lets skip that and move on to Accounting Shine Nite '11.well,it's pretty mundane because the director of the course said it was the first time they made this event.anyway,everyone looked smart pretty beautiful sexy handsome and etc hahahaha as if like we were just graduated from 2 years of the course.photos were already uploaded at fb.

spent my saturday at grandm's house and watched Friends with Benefits.naise lol.

chilled much since i'm too tired.

tomorrow shall finish up my assignment and read up Managing Systems & People - Unit 1.

preparing class test on monday.sigh :<

another busy week ahead and i'm not ready.have not been enough rest too lately.still in holiday mood.

okay that is all for this week.stay tune for next week's.

have a nice weekend everyone (: xo.

2011-10-01T22:22:00.000+08:00

ah,finally i met up with them.without us noticed,it's going to be one year soon that we've been friends.hehehe :B
missing those times when we were at Kallang,having our training.sadly,i had to leave earlier so yeah.that was on last thursday.

yesterday which was friday,i met my ex-secondary schoolmate,deeyan because she needed a model for her elective module test. :OOOOO i love my long eyelashes.lol.

well,i personally think that she did pretty well even her teacher said too.

at night,bf came down all the way here to have dinner with me at kfc.hehehehe.

we decided to meet again today.accompanied him to cut his hair then to wendy's at jp then we walked around with my double chocolate frappe.heh.sadly,this would be the last day i spent my day with him for this school term break.he couldn't believe that i'm starting school this monday.he said it's too fast :< ikr love.sigh.

i can't believe myself too.ever since holidays started,i had been spending almost every single day with you.

we shall do this again for our next term break.i'll miss those times for sure.

i love you ok? xo.

2011-09-28T19:53:00.001+08:00

Birthday boy with his USS ticket.heh.
well,we both had fun and i guess he did enjoy his day.
i got for him that tee,paid for him the USS and also treat a dinner at Secret Reciepe.
hope you love it.that's all that i could afford.but it's the thought that counts right?hehehe.
met him again just now for awhile to pass his things and we had macd then bubble tea.
don't tell me it'll be the last day i spend time with you before my school starts?
i'll be going out with my ex-colleagues tmr and the next day,my ex-secondary schmate need me.
haish :'< this was my best holidays ever! we really did spend time together.in a few years time,i bet we could hardly get to spend time like this.i'm really looking foward for my next term break.
and we're planning to go USS again.hehehe,Insya'Allah.
results tmr at 8am.haiyayaya!
xo.

p.s i still survive after a few rounds of roller coaster.lol

2011-09-26T20:53:00.004+08:00

harloooooooo
ah hah,sister is in school for night study and i'm all alone in my room :<
nah brothers are inside but they're playing pokemon cards zzzzz.
so what shall i post about today?
ahhhh,shall talk about that boy.yes my boyfriend i mean since it's his 18th birthday tomorrow.
hehehe :B
wishing you in advance here(idk if you would read this).....

happy 18th birthday khairul mubin bin mohd amin! <3<3<3<3<3

erm,no longer act like an immatured when walking with me,huh? heh.

i did something for you and i hope you love it.yes,i know you saw it already and i've been denying it.

harhar,it is a video for you la.you've been the best guy that i need tho at times there are high and low.

just best wishes from me and we'll have fun okay later.

i love you so much,xoxo!

we shall enjoy as much as we could before my school starts next week.
i'm going miss spending my daysss(every day!) with you :'<

2011-09-24T17:43:00.003+08:00

it's been a week and im still having the withdrawal symptoms :<
above is their latest single and it's their new music video heh.
so last week,they came over to do a second private showcase and i managed to get in with Aien along.
it was just super fantastic :B and i really enjoyed the show.
sadly,i didn't get the 'Meet&Greet' pass and i didn't go for their Autograph/Take-A-Pic session too boohoo D':
it's okay...because....the boys are coming back here somewhere around Feb next year! teehee.
need to get the most expensive tix.lol.
okay i need to stop ranting about TW before i go on and on :P

anyway,if you read my previous post about me going Somerset to collect something,this is it.
i won myself a HTC ChaCha.how awesome was that?luck was at my side :)
life has been pretty good with all these things coming without me forking out a single cents.
it all started when uncle bought for me Nokia X3-02 then he bought for me a laptop and now this?
i didn't even realise that there was a lucky draw going on.lol.
so as for my allowance i can use it for clothes or may be foods will be much better.
Alhamdulilah :)

this week is the second last week of my school holiday.guess what?
again,i've been spending my days with boyf.yes,every single day.im sure im going to miss this when school reopens.
just yesterday we went to Marina and dined in at Seoul Garden and again we managed to get quite a nice view to watch the F1 race.
we did this too last year and the date was only 1 day difference.heh.
may be we shall do this every year,huh?
thanks for the days,love.oh yes,your birthday is coming soon and we'll have lot of fun!
i'll make sure it's going to happen ^ ^

ahhhhhhhhhhhh,i'm hungry and that woman isnt cooking.ugh!
you've been testing my patience ok.idc if you're older but really.
forgodness sake! I AM 18 YEAR OLD NOW!
fml much.zzzzzz!

2011-09-16T00:49:00.004+08:00

it's already close to 1am now and i'm still wide awake :/ so decided to update my blog then.

this week had been hectic eventho it's only Friday today.on the weekends,i'm going to occupy myself too.

well one thing about this week,i've been spending my days with boyf and i love it.

i think this is the only time i can meet him every single day before we get back to school.

thank you so much for your accompanying me these days and of course,i'd always love our days and had fun with you.

i think it all started since last week when we watched FD 5 and followed by the raya outing with your friends.

above were just some photos taken last Sat,10th Sept.

well,everything was going just fine and yeah everyone had fun i guess.

on Mon,12th Sept was with my 5N1'10.

honestly i didn't really enjoy it because of someone and i guess it wasn't really fun like boyf's side :\

may be because a whole lot of us couldn't make it or........... idk?

oh yeah,boyf tagged along too ;)

Tues,13th Sept gave a treat to my sister and boyf.

Wed,14th Sept went back to school to send back some forms with AienSJ and to airport to have lunch with boyf.

Thurs,15th Sept managed to catch Johnny English Reborn with boyf.thumbs up for it(Y)(Y)(Y)

Fri,16th Sept(which is today)Will be going Somerset to get something.i'm unsure if it's free though so i shall not say it what's the thing is unless you've read my tweet.heh,and boyf will be accompanying me later.

OHFUCKYEAH! THE WANTED'S SHOWCASE ON THE 17TH SEPT!

hehehehehehe,i'm just so excited about it.

i'll make sure i'm reaching there a few hours before 1430 :B

have a safe flight to here,guys! if only i knew what's your arrival timing,i'd wait for you at the airport.

okok,sorry.fan girl mode:ON

^ ^

well actually,i have a lot to pen my thoughts down about something.no,it's more like type because i'm using laptop.lol.

but i think this is long enough for today's post so will just save it on other days.

stay tunezxc hor.

it's close to 0120 now.shall turn in now.i've not been having enough of sleep this week.bleargh~

goodnight,xo!

2011-09-07T20:09:00.004+08:00

meet my second boyfriend :P

every now and then,i keep thinking about death after watching Final Destination 5.

err i rate it 3/5 because there were too much computer edit.i mean like it was obvious that was not real.anyway,boyf managed to get in when he's not even 18.tsk -.-'

it was a last minute plan.we both got ourselves a long sleeve shirt from Uniqlo and way before that,we had Ben&Jerry's.heh :) love the day spent with him.

ohfuckyeah,exams are over and both papers were manageable.hoping to clear both modules and i can move on.hee~

o.O i heard that someone committed suicide in my school and yes,somehow she did it at business block.why did you do it?! sigh,it's a sad thing. people who are depression......

anyway,thank god it's school holiday now and i won't ever go to the toilet alone.

finally,the school term break is here.shall release the stress and have as much fun as i need.

yes,i really need a break from numbers -.-''

it's already the 8th Syawal and so far my raya celebration was o-kay.no,my collection didn't decrease.heh :B feel so young.lol.except that i had to study for two papers and i even had to bring along my textbook when i went out with family.

sadly,for this year we didn't manage to celebrate with one of my cousins because he had to work morning shift.gotta continue this jalan raya on this saturday with boyf's friends.

just hoping everything will go well.don't spoil my mood please,girl.

this is so going to be awkward and i'm going to make sure boyf is sticking with me all the day.lol.

10 more days till i meet The Wanted.oh god NATHAN SYKES! heh.

20 more days till we celebrate boyfriend's 18th birthday.

this is going to be exciting.

alright,i'm going make my blog updated now since i'm having holidays.

thats all for now folks.

goodnight,xo

2011-08-21T22:32:00.002+08:00

It's the 21st Ramadan.

that's fast and hopefully,i'm able to fast till the end of the month.

did a bit of shopping with boyfriend in the day.we managed to get our contact lenses and also my raya shoes and my flower! ^ ^ what else did we do?

oh! we were walking around the best denki and two salesman approached us asking if they could assist us.lol.excuse me,i'm only 18 and he is not even 18 yet and do we look like a married couple?

or the way we talked,walked......made us looked matured?heh :B

eh boy,i lup chu many many otay! <3

thanks for accompanying me.

i'm not really in mood for raya actually.i just want to get over with the two papers and have my holidays!looking foward to spend time with old friends and of course my one and only boyfrienggg!

we plan to cook together,do videos and much more activities! (Y)(Y)(Y)

will update soon when i'm free.i doubt i'll be free this 2 weeks as raya and exams are coming.

grrrrrrrrrr~

goodnight folks.

2011-08-15T21:22:00.004+08:00

felt much better today :)

thanks boyfriend for making me laughed all the way back home.

lately,i kno our relationship is rocking and we nearly lose it all but nah.

from School > Funan > Macd > His crib > Home.

i love it when you made me laugh till my cheeks hurt.

guess what?i can't wait to celebrate your birthday.

i'm the one who is excited ^^ and i keep praying hard that we won't fight again just like the other day...

no matter how many times we fought,i still choose you.we're like siblings.we fight today and the the next day,we're fine.you know how to make me smile back when i was mad.we've been together for 52 months.even when you were attached to that both ladies,you were still there for me.you know that i will not find someone better when i put in mind that i already have the best.which is you,K.M :)

to her,seriously just fuck off.ever since i'm with him,you always seem to break us apart.

somehow because of you,he two timed me.that was the past and i thought we were okay now.you followed me on Twitter,we started mentioning our name to each other recently but nah.you started it again.you told everyone about me on Twitter.it was just so obvious.

that day was between us and who the hell told you to get involve in this?i dislike third party a lot.no,i HATE third party.if you had something to say about me,you could have just say it right in face or at least text me but seriously,you didn't have to tweet about it.you knew him about 6 months before me and must that be the reason?i mean like seriously,it was only 6 months away.kau berkira nak mampus.it's not as if a year.kau kenal dia lama dari aku so aku kena tahu mana kedudukkan aku?kau buat kelakar eh...haiyo.you didn't have to tweet!

it was between MUBIN and MYSELF.it was our both fault but you didn't have to tell the whole world,mak cik!grrrrrr.

and now,i let you do whatever you wish to because i don't care.

what goes around comes back around,Nur Asikin!

and only He knows who was right/wrong at that time.

i know i was wrong too -.-''

i'm done.

2011-08-10T21:04:00.002+08:00

aku malu pasal kau tweet pasal aku.orang semua tahu siapa kau refer to.

orang semua akan pandang buruk dengan aku.

aku tahu aku tak bersalah.aku tahu salah dia.dia yang mulakan dulu.

kenapa aku?orang semua tak kan tahu cerita yang betul.

tapi kerana kau dengan tweet kau itu,kau pikir orang semua nak percayakan aku?

sekarang aku rasa macam nak hilangkan diri aku daripada orang semua.aku dah cukup malu dengan apa kau bilang pada semua.

>': i only had nuggets and fries for break fast.

and i went straight to my room to perform my prayers and cried right after i'm done on bed.

i've been holding on for one whole day.it just hurts me.

i don't wish to end this but..........sigh................

i wanted to stop all this shitzxc.i had enough.

it became my fault now?

thanks for making me realise where am i standing now.

i'm just nothing.i'm nothing to you.

your bestfriend is something to you.

you're just using me............

I AM JUST NOTHING TO YOU.

N-O-T-H-I-N-G............................................goodbye.

2011-07-29T22:02:00.003+08:00

hi everyone(: and yeah,it's TGIF.
it's been awhile i didn't update because i'd been busy lately.real busy + tired.
facebook bores me and twitter seems so quiet so i decided to update my blog.
firstly,of course SCHOOL.
i got irritated with most of my classmates.some were even weird 0.0
but whatever it is,i think i'm doing o-kay with studies.exams schedule is out.

5th Sept - Business Environment
6th Sept - Accounting Fundamentals

yes,only two papers and two days respectively.i've to sacrifice my first few days of Raya to study because of this exams.projects deadline are ending soon and i guess i'm doing fine with it.almost complete with everything.*YAY!

alright,what's next?

okay,this is specially for my boyfriend.

hey babe,please stop blaming your mum for passing down the illness to you.stop being mad at yourself for having it for the rest of your life.come on,look on the bright side-the people who are still there for you,who are care for you,who loves you.anyway,you still can do things like what you've been doing all this while.it's just that you need to watch out your diet and have your medicine taken.that's all.if you kept blaming,you're blaming Him too.you should be thankful instead.i know may be i don't understand the whole situation but hey,there are people who are worse than you.i'm very sure that you didn't get that intership was not because what illness you're having.your friend is fit but still,he got the same reply as you.i love you ok.i really do love you so much that i don't wish to lose you again.please be thankful with what you have around you and stop blaming.i will give you a hug when we meet soon alright?*hugs* xoxo. i love you.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmzxc....

okay may be i shall side track a little bit.i was on my way to Jurong Point from the MRT Station and guess what?someone tapped my shoulder.HAR HAR!she said i've the potential to become a model and she wanted to recommend me to her boss.lol please.i don't even see myself as a model because i ain't pretty,sadly :< i doubt they will call back.tsk! anyway,i'm not really interested.hah!

i'm done,folks!i'm sleepy :/

goodnight readers<3

2011-07-17T20:10:00.003+08:00

i did study for the whole chapter on laws for business environment upcoming test the since phone was on silent mode itself the whole day.not even a single vibration.
i can't be bothered anymore actually.you've been acting so weird recently.
you were on your cranky mood and the next minute,all your sweet words came out.
so what's going to happen next? :/

2011-07-07T21:47:00.007+08:00

yes,that was what happened yesterday.i was brought to the hospital and really,i'd like to thank Khairul Mubin for helping and being there for me.not to forget all the those who were there too.

all i knew was i thought i was about to die.yes,i was at edge of dying.

the pain was just excruciating and the next minute,i couldn't feel anything.my eyes were shut too.idk if i'm feeling better right now because the pain is still there.

sometimes,i think he should just leave me there and wait till my parents come and see my conditions.idk what the hell are they thinking.i feel upset about it till now.

whenever i fall sick,you won't bother your daughter.should i even called myself your daughter?

i have a backbone problem too but they don't even want to follow up with my next appointment.

we went there for only twice.hello,i don't want to be paralysis(touch wood).

i have something for my future and i'm only 18.if you think its a normal,you shouldn't have make babies in the first place.so much of your responsibilities -.-'

may be even if i died,you'd be much happier because i won't put much burden on you and everyone else.yes i know i did put a lot of trouble including with my boyfriend and my friends especially when i was in secondary school.i'm sorry for that.

if only you had bring me to the doctor earlier,i'd be much better now but nah,it's getting worse.

i'm trying to hold on even if its killing me.i'll try to keep everything to myself this time.

you scolded me for giving a lot of trouble to the others.fine,that's enough.that would be the last time.if the pain were to come again,i hope God will take me away.

:'< it hurts...totally hurt.sigh............

2011-07-03T00:25:00.003+08:00

no one knows what happened.

no one understand me.

i trusted you but i was being fooled.

i waited and waited...

it is just hurting me a lot and again.

another night of crying..... :'<

2011-07-01T12:20:00.004+08:00

awww......heh c:
love you,Taufik!

hi everybodehhh!
hell yeah,its Friday.you must be looking foward to the weekends.
hehe.it is just a normal day for me.another rotting home day.
and guess what?ever since monday,i had maggie for my breakfast.zzzz....
that is very unhealthy.well,i had different flavours tho such as tom yum,beef,chicken,laksa :B
blogger is being a bitch with me right now.where the hell were you when i needed you last night? :< till i had to cry myself to sleep.
and today,you won't let me upload pictures.damn you!pffft.
nehmind.

my back has been killing me,literally :<
ever since the day after i did my NAPHA(or whatever you spell it)test.
especially sit and reach station and sit-up too.
i think i wasn't suppose to do it but yeah,mum didn't allow me to go for further check up so i've no excuse letter from the doctor.
i don't want to end up sitting on the wheelchair for the rest of my life eh.
*prays hard*

i had a dream.i dreamt i scored so well for O'levels :<
and i woke up,i cried.i realised my mistakes now.
no,its not that i didn't study.want to know the reasons?
come and find me~ heh heh.
if only i had the chance to go back............
sigh.

2011-06-27T20:19:00.001+08:00

finally,i had my rest after a busy week :)

my whole body is aching but feeling better now.

so where did i stop?hmm....oh yar,it was about my BLAZE Camp.

i miss my campmates and the activities too.alright,leave that behind.

so after my camp,the next day i spent my time with him.

he missed me so much and worried about me.(oh,i knew this from his twitter)heh heh.

last friday,i spent my day with my colleagues at Botanic Gardens.

it's been so long i didn't meet the other two since the other one is from the school as me.

miss those days when we had our trainings at Kallang.

guess what?we left Kami Kental's group in fb because we felt irritated.

i mean it's been the same people kept posting things that i wouldn't want to know.lol.

sadly,i had to leave early and boyf picked me up.we headed to Vivo to get his shirt first.

then,met my family over at cousin's house.yay* i got my hair trimmed.

felt much better now ^ ^

(i never really had my rest,don't you think so?)

last saturday,uncle gave us a treat to USS.yes,it was my 3rd time.

we left the house around 9am and idk why but the place was crowded this time.

the queue for us to get in was so long.don't ask about the rides,yet.i hope you can imagine about it.

we quickly went over for the roller coaster first because we didn't get to take it even after went for 2 times since it wasn't open yet.

the funny thing was,we just queue up without knowing was it Human/Cyclone.HAH!

we took the Cyclone which is much more scarier than Human.after those rides,we just followed the kids.

i was already too tired to take the rest of the rides and lazy to queue.you just don't know how long we need to wait.

one of the rides,we had to wair app. 100 mins.IMAGINE THAT?!

anyway,i had to rush to Eunos for Mendaki BBQ.(see how busy i was)parents sent me and left my siblings there.

it was such a bore for me till the activities came in.well,at least i participated but sadly,Ain and i were in different teams ;<

i got wet,real wet.we ate first then cleaned up and parents picked us up.i found out that siblings were still at USS,watching fireworks.

should've just stay with them.

the next day,i met him again and something happened :O hahaha,love you xoxo.

meeting him again tmr.weeeeeeeeeehoooooooo~

okay bye.my mind goes blank suddenly.......

2011-06-23T23:11:00.002+08:00

words are cheap = actions speak louder than words.

this was what i learnt throughout the 3D2N BLAZE Camp.

it was a leadership camp which was held at Sembawang and Sentosa.

let start with my first day....

FIRST DAY - 20th June

it started badly because i met someone while waiting for the bus in school :O

i think it was quite boring too because basically,i didnt really know my teammates except for Ain(duh!)

there was a briefing and we had to set some expectations/goals before we began the camp.

for my team,we called ourself Blaze-14 simply because it consisted 14 of us.lol.

we proceeded by doing low elements at first.it was totally a dry one.

especially when we had to balance ourselves on the see-saw.we were on that thing for 2 hours under the scorching sun.

imagine that.after lunch,we went for high elements.this was awesome because i overcame my fears.yay!

i didnt get to try it when i had my sec 3 camp :< i feel like trying it once again.

at night,i didnt really remember what happened except that we played Laser Combat,we had to plan for our campfire and something happened too.

one of my teammates threw his phone away because he was too mad with (idk what's the reason) but i heard that someone else took his gf's photo.

errr,i knew how you feel but don't you love your phone?hah.

i fell sick.the air-con tempreture was too low and my nose was blocked :<

SECOND DAY - 21st June

we became closer and on that day,we went to Sentosa for 2 activities - Rafting & Amazing Race.

it's been awhile i didnt go to that beach so (hehehehe) i had fun and enjoying myself with the water.

the water was too clean....... :B it was like my first time there -______________-''

we were there for one whole day and when we were on the way back to our campsite,it was raining.

raining = no campfire :'<

eh,i mean we had campfire but no fire.ah hah!

and finally,we managed to come out with an item to peform which was impersonating some of our instructors and friends.

we did a skit on what had happened throughout the 2 days during the camp.heh heh!

eventhough it was a last minute plan but we made it and everyone enjoyed it~

after the campfire itself,i fell asleep because was too fatigue already.

THIRD DAY - 22nd June (last day!)

it was sad lah because the days passed by so fastttttttttttttttttttttt... :'<

Blaze-14 made our Instructor Rizz cried.(awwww!)

we played some games and the last one was to build a roller coaster using the materials given.

i was lucky to have those guys in my group because they knew what to do.

come on,i'm from Accounting and what you expect me to know?HAHAHA.

so yeah,we succeeded (Y)

we made an appreciation card for our instructor and he was touched.heh heh.

you kno,everything that happens,it always has to come an end.

and Instructor Rizz told us that many people out there are still looking down on ITE students.

we just have to ignore them because they can't change who we are.

iBelieve ITE is not = It's The End.

he wished us all the best for life and to sum up,words are cheap.

therefore,if we want something,do it.........

hmmm,yeah.that's about it.my plans for tmr is to meet my colleague and hopefully i can meet boyfriend too.

i like it when he sings 'Back At One' just now.heh heh :P

alright,goodnight folks........

2011-06-17T22:27:00.002+08:00

woooooooooots!

finally my term break is here.

and i just had a short holiday for the past 2 days with my classmates.heh.

sadly,it was only 2D1N but it was such a sweet and awesome times with them.

the instructors there taught us a lot of things especially about life.

people nowadays forgot about the simple basic things in what humans have.

which is FEELINGS.

and they also gave us some quote such as 'Words can hurt but it may also heal'.

it's so true.

and at times,we forgot that some people out there are not as perfect as us yet all we do is to complain.

i've a classmate who can't talk and hear but still,she participated in some of the activities during our camp.she said she looked at our lips and from there,she knew we were calling out her name.

see how special our voice is.

we played a game for 2 hours and we had to restart for 50 plus times.she didn't play with us but she knew we were already frustrated/irritated with each other but she kept giving us words of encouragement not to give up and yes,we did it as a whole class.

well,anyway i really did enjoy my camp with the whole class.

sadly,this morning there was school for me and it was the last day.

unfortunately,i woke up and i had to skip the first lesson :P

after school,went to meet just for awhile because........................(ader lah orang tu eh) -.-

not really looking fwd for tmr because i'm still tired.

one camp after another.going ECP with family and cousins........

mon-wed,i've another camp.

whuat a life :<

EDGE Camp photos had been uploaded so feel free to look at it.

not all.i think there's 200+ more to go.HAHAHA!

thanks to my classmates for the wonderful photos :)

2011-06-13T20:53:00.004+08:00

"It has become more complicated to say something that may have been easier to share last week. Somehow,the current situation has changed so much that you could be feeling insecure about expressing your feelings. Although you might muster up the courage to finish a recent conversation, you're quickly tempted to abandon your plans. There's no need to overreact; take the additional time required to resolve a delicate relationship issue."

it can read my mind because its true.i took this from my twitter ; twitscope for today.

i'm done packing my bag for Edge Camp this Wednesday and i'll be back on Thursday.

so yeah,it's a 2 days 1 night camp.lol.

feels like running away from here.i wish i could :'<

okay,at least i'm going to the East side which is quite far lah.hah.

really looking foward to it to distress myself.ah hah,read my twitscope -.-''

my backbone hurts a lot since last week >: neither can i sit straight nor bend.it's hard for me to get up once i sat.

its too painful that sometime it could make me cry.boooooo.

i'm not ready to sit on the wheelchair or stay on the bed for the rest of my life.

(why the hell i think far?) but i'm really afraid if .................

i've not been going for my appointment and i'm afraid to tell mum about it.sigh.

and mum just asked why i'd been pee-ing so frequent these days.scares me a lot......

okay skips that first.it's Monday today and i wasn't really in my mood but my first AFD test result made my day.Alhamdulilah,Amin(;

i don't have to retake(Y) and also i passed my S&W Theory Test (Y)(Y)(Y).

awesomezxc.waiting for BEV and OFA now.

heeeeeeeeeeee~

that day went really well until i read your inbox.i knew i wasn't suppose to do that and i'm sorry.sigh.

it hurts a lot and you just won't understand.

I DETEST YOUR BEST FRIEND AND EX A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!! _l_ go and die to them.

too pissed off already.if i could run away from this place,i would.

thank god,i've things which i think its enough to occupy my holidays.

i shall look foward for my camps.here are some plans for my upcoming holidays:

15th - 16th Edge Camp
18th -19th Family Outing/Overnight @ECP
20th - 21st BLAZE Camp
25th USS(again!)

and i have 2 projects that are needed to be done over the holidays and some meet ups with old friends.i'm keeping myself busy to keep myself away from thinking those bitches who hurt me a lot.will update about cousins' outing soon when i'm free.

goodnight,xo.

2011-06-11T23:53:00.001+08:00

yeah,thanks to Aien for inviting me to this show.heh.

there were a lot of surprises that i made me to keep looking for it all around me.lol.

the performers were awesomezxc(Y) yes,they did a great job.

today is the 11th which marks our 2nd monthsary of friendship.nyehehe.

we're so close.well,she's a great buddy indeed eventho she's a blur girl.heh,sorreh babe.

hope this friendship will last<3<3<3

(it reminds me of my ex-classmates)sigh..........i wonder when can i meet them.

skips that.i hate it.

i miss those times when i laughed so hard with you.that was the real me.

wasn't putting a mask,wasn't faking my laughters.how i wish we could just be that way all the times

sadly,we're busy with school at times,we're a bit cranky,we fight at times unreasonably.we're just too tired.

but these are the things which keep us fighting for our love.it makes us stronger.

it was nice bringing back those times when we were much younger.

how nerd we were?! :O and how could we fall for each other when we were looked so nerd back then.

HAHAHA!

i wish the talk and laughters didn't end tonight.you made my cheek hurts for laughing a lot.

i'd rather have my cheek hurts than having my eyes in tears :>

you just don't know how you made my day.it's been awhile i had those laughs.

we walked all the way at the Sentosa Boardwalk...we listened to music in the bus...

idk why but i really love a lot today<3 thank you so much,boyfriend.

i'm left with another week till school term break starts.

finally,i'm done with all tests.i hope i don't have any re-tests for any of the modules.

also my napha test.i think i did oh-kay :\

have i told you that i'm the class rep now? :O well,i've to mark their attendance which i hate it.

i didn't even know why i agreed to be one

-______________________-''

cousin outing tmr.................

2011-06-05T00:30:00.002+08:00

hey.................

yeah,i've not yet sleep so shall update it.

hmm,had a bad stomach cramp and backbone was aching too in the morning.i really didn't want to cancel my plan with him so i forced myself to be strong.yay* i made it! if only in school,i could do the same thing too......alright,supposed to meet him at 1pm but i told him to meet slightly later since i need a little bit of time to rest first.yesterday,when we met,he had flu.today,he lost his voice.

)': oh boy.he must be in a lot of pain ever since he was warded but i know he's a strong boy.

get well soon,please.take care of your health!

i kept teasing him about foodzxc.i couldn't help it,i'm sorry :\ hahaha,i was just joking around.deep inside,i couldn't bare to see him like that.we studied for an hour plus.he kept sneezing in the library so we decided to made our way to the interchange and he sent me to Redhill.i went to grandm's house and he went to meet his family....after 7pm,parents brought us to Esplanade and chilled.lol.enjoyed the free show and after that,back home.

nice day indeed with him and family.i swear i didn't really have time during weekdays even for my family.as soon as i reached home from school,i'll just stay in my room,doing my things.

i want to do some shopping.i want new pants/tees and idk if i should get another pair of shoes.mum just bought me the Vans.thought of getting a pair of Birkenstock.what you all think?hmmm......but first,where's my money???!!! i've been waiting for the past few weeks.grrr!

shall wait for it.hopefully,it will come when i've my holidays so i can shop!(Y)heh.

alright.i shall turn in now.its already 1am :O

oh wait! happy 51st monthsary <3

okay,goodnight.

2011-06-03T23:48:00.002+08:00

the last time went out to celebrate my 18th birthday,you sicked.just now also sick.

i have virus eh?i think so =\

so weird right every single time with me,you'll fall sick.

with friends,so fast recover.what's this?

i think its my turn to go clinic and check what disease/virus am i carrying around.

-_______________-''

goodnight.

2011-06-02T20:48:00.007+08:00

i kno this video long time ago.i'll make new one when i'm free :B
hey you.i hope you're reading this.i know life will hard for you now but don't give up.i'm still here for you.i'm not going to leave you no matter what happen to you.i know people might be thinking that i'm dumb for having you but i don't mind.the day before you went to clinic,we weren't really contact and i was mad because you didn't text me.the next day,when you asked me ,

"do you still want with a guy who is having this illness?"

i was already afraid of losing you.i held on my tears till i got back home.i didn't really have a good sleep since that day.all i want to do is to be there with you,accompany you.i'm sorry that i couldn't.i would if i could,i swear.the second day when you were in the hospital,i managed to visit you.you just won't know how i felt.frankly,i can't help it to see you with the injections.and you'll need to do it every day.after visiting you,it hurts me more to see you in that condition.come on,you're only 18(not even 18 yet :P ).its like too young for you to have it.unfortunately,there's nothing that we can do.some things we just can't avoid it.

may be it was a lesson for everyone,may be it was from His test.things may change a little bit for us.no more fast foods every time if we met....and many more.i hope we'll still stay strong and we'll go through it.i realised we went through a lot together.i still remember when friends kept saying me stupid for waiting for you and so on but i don't bother them.we both made mistakes in the past.surprisingly,we've come this far and this coming 5th,its our 51st Monthsary(:

i'd ask nothing much.i just want you to extra take care of your health now and i hope this relationship will last long.i won't ever leave you because of your illness,mind that!

I STILL LOVE YOU,KHAIRUL MUBIN!<3 xoxo.

2011-05-30T20:14:00.003+08:00

today wasn't my day,i swear.

firstly,sorry to my two girls for not staying back with you till 4pm because i wasn't in my mood.

it all started because i woke up late, @6am but i managed to get the train like the usual time i always do.heh :P

next,i lose 2 games of the tournament.may be because not much of encouragement and i really really really not in the mood.i didn't really focus in the game.how awesome!

they only sent me,the only girl to play with the 5 guys against SM.tsk!

and we went off and had lunch together but i didn't.they kept questioning me and i just smiled.they even wanted to give me a treat.may be they thought i lost mood because of the game but nah,don't get me wrong people.thanks for asking,anyway!<3 we played well enough.

oh yes,i met with the wrong people.i swear i feel like punching right into her face when i bumped onto her.see how serious i hated her.ugh.

i wore a mask the whole day in school.sigh >:

as i was on my way home,some people pushed me hard.in the bus,a boy from my school tapped me hard on my shoulder because he wanted to know where did i get that bag.he got scolded from me.sorry boy ):

and ended up,i gave him the wrong answer.

lastly,my phone was on silence the whole day.haiz >':

i feel like crying since this morning...........................

TODAY IS NOT MY DAY,FOR GODNESS SAKE!UGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

2011-05-29T22:41:00.004+08:00

hey,before i start...today is 29th!

I'M 18 YEARS 1 MONTH OLD.heh heh.okay shut up~

it's already 2230 here.a quick update and i shall sleep after this.

nothing much happened on the weekends.

hmmmm,went over to his crib and slacked.he had to go so i made my way back home.

and i told mum to go out to have our dinner and yes she agreed.

then had a night walk around the city and back home.i played angrybird till late night.heh :P

addicted lah.and today was really fuck up since early morning but sister cooled me down by bringing me to wm and bought school stuffs for me.thank you v nice.

anyway,you can say whatever you want but i'm not going to listen to your advice.

stop being paranoid,boy.you know you didnt do it and why are you still afraid?tsk.

you want to push me away?fine,don't ever come back.i'm tired of it.

blame me if you want to for not listening to your advice.it's my fault,right?

hahahahahaha.

okay,need enough rest for tomorrow's tournament.

ALL THE BEST,QC!!!

hope to have a great week ahead =|

goodnight,xo.

2011-05-27T22:10:00.004+08:00

hi...............................................

i'm having slight fever due to missing my youngest brother who went for his camp.he'd only be back tomorrow.lol.

things had been average for me.tests after tests in school and it's tiring.

even if my lesson starts at 10am,i need to wake up as early as 0700.well,the latest would be 0745?

so,there's no much of difference.and i've to be thankful with my small sized body because i can always squeeze in the train no matter how pack it is.heh.

i really do miss my old classmates >:c my new classmates are already having conflicts here and there and for some,they're just weird people.thank god,we'll be only together for 2 years :P

so far,i'm coping well with studies even for my business environment module.yes,i need to read up myself then i understand.that teacher really can't be rely on -.-'' everyone gets irritating with his accent and therefore,no one will listen to him in class.BEV CA Test will be this Thurs.goodluck eh!:D

let see what is install for me next week....

Dodgeball tournament - Mon
BEV Progression Test - Tues
HPB talk - Tues
BEV CA Test - Thurs
OFA CA Test - Fri

after that week,left with 2.4km run and we'll be having a 2d1n camp in school.don't feel excited suddenly.idk why =|

alright,need to stop here as my brain went blank suddenly.

will try to update it again on the weekends.wait! i want to go out but i'm seriously broke and awesome-not,my ez-link too :( may be i will be staying at home,studying.

fml tmr.byezxc!

2011-05-22T20:35:00.002+08:00

we went to catch Pirates Of The Caribbean in the afternoon and while waiting for it to start,we played monopoly deal.sorry love,if i beat you too hard =\ i've been losing even though i had the most powerful cards.grrr.i still love him though<3 hehehe.

things were not really good recently but he managed to save our 4 years relationship.i know it must be hard on him.i'm sorry )': i really feel bad about it.

i was the one to blame ever since i went for the twinning programme 3 years ago.

it is just something isn't right in me.i do miss the old us.those times when we were in 2007.

sigh.....whatever it is,i hope i don't wish to lose you again or find faults.

and recently,he seems sick.his parents are worried for him and me too.if you do love us,please listen to your parents to go for a check up.Insya Allah,you'll be alright(:

i wish i can have you all the time by my side.even after meeting you the whole day,it wasn't enough.i miss you,boyfriend....xoxo

hmmm.......all the best to me for tomorrow's oral test(Y).

2011-05-19T22:28:00.002+08:00

enough is enough.yes,i may be seem nice to everyone but that doesn't mean you can take advantage of me.you need to know your limit.i don't like having revenge because i believe in karma.yes,honestly i still hate your EXs(the ones who you two timed with) and also your best friend.sorry for having that hate feelings but they were the ones who hurt me much.

if you're still contacting with them,go ahead.no one is stopping you now :)

i had enough.

before i end this post,all the best to myself for tomorrow's Accounting Fundamentals test.

goodnight world................

2011-05-16T22:30:00.002+08:00

sigh.

i knew it too well.i knew this won't last long.

things will just repeat again.

i need a little breather.i need to go somewhere far from here.

that's the only way you'll learn your lessons.

i miss having my friends...but they would only turn up when they have problems.

now me,i'm all alone by myself.all along,i lied to my new friends about you.

i had to because i didnt want to explain the whole thing.

really complicated )':

2011-05-07T00:03:00.002+08:00

hi =\

not really in the mood tonight.

just wanted to say that i signed up for the job for the Formula 1 this year.

hopefully,they'll choose me.lol,sound so desperate sia.

it seems fun but i bet it's going to be tiring because most of the positions will work from 1pm to 12 midnight.ah hah!and before the actual event,we've to commit ourselves with the training sessions.mostly,would be during weekends/school holidays.

if i were chosen,i shall just give it a try then since it will be once in a year thing.

the pay isn't that bad and we'll get Certificate Of Customer Service Training.

weekends are here and sadly,it'll be a short one because we,ITE students will continue our day as per normal on Monday :'(

how i wish i'm a primary/secondary school student.

assignments are piling because tests are coming soon.

nothing much happened in school this week.

always with the usual girls...laughed...laughed...laughed...

oh yes,i ditch dance :)

i'm just too tired............

physically and mentally.

2011-05-01T19:41:00.005+08:00

GOODBYE APRIL,HELLO MAY! :)

hopefully,it will be a great month or better just like April.

heh heh and i'm finally 18 years old.

this week had been awesome for me be it in school/outside school.studies had been hard for me but i'm still coping with it well.

with crazy friends around,i'll always laugh together with them.

oh yes!i was surprised when i found out i was underweight.i've never been underweight :<

i really really really need to gain weight! lol.

i wonder when can i meet my ex-classmates............i miss them a lot =\

alright,so last friday was my day.since secondary 4,my classmates will sing a birthday song for me and it was "awww".hehehe.

this year,even better because my class advisor bought a cake for me and i had to finish it up before the class can go for our next class.

tsk tsk.i love it tho.thank you,UQ1104C <333

after school,i picked bf up at np(yar,when it supposed to be the other way round).hahaha.

we went macd and had our early dinner and played monopoly deal.tsk tsk,he kept winning.

at night,i blowed my 18 candles and cut my cake with family.hehehe.mum knew me the best! she knows what are my favourites :D

then came the next day.it rained and i thought our plan had to cancel but no because the rain finally stopped!

bf wasn't feeling well,he kept sneezing but he still wanted to go out with me to celebrate my birthday:) love you<3

so we went all the way to east coast park and rent a double bike.i was forced to sit in front and control the bike but i had fun.

he thought i didnt know how to control it.hehehehe.enjoying the breeze,snapping photos....

after spending about 3 hours there,we went to somerset to get my birthday present.okay,i hated this part of the day.before that,on the way there we talked a lot about the past.

how fast time flies.we managed to get this far and hopefully,we'll stay this way.

he forced me to choose what i want.i'm not the kind who ask for things and end up,he chose for me.hehehehe.

then we slacked at the coffeebean and he got me my favourite drink too ^^

thank you so much,boyfriend.i had a great day with you and i wish it didn't end :))))))))))))))))

i love you,KM.

more photos uploaded on fb.............

went to a wedding ceremony earlier on and saw my math teacher,Ms Masayu.

heh,reminded me of math class.sigh........

and now watching the simpsons movie and updating this.hah!

yay!tomorrow is holiday=no school.

hehehehe,till here lah.xo.

2011-04-23T13:38:00.003+08:00

olaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

how's your long weekend so far?i had fun especially yesterday...

okay wait.before i jump into that,i shall update bits and pieces about school this week.

well,it's already the end of the 2nd week of school.so fast right? =\

i guess i've been coping well so far except for BEV.need to read up by myself ):

only the 2nd week of school and i've piles of homework that are needed to be done.sigh.

also case study...(project)

overall,school was fun with awesome classmates around.hehe :B

oh yeah,i decided to join BL only as my cca and hopefully,i can get through the interview.

below here are some photos that were taken last wed/thur if i'm not wrong during AFD lesson.hah!

just to make both of us awake :P

alright so yesterday was friday friday,gotta get down on friday~ lol.

furthermore it was public holiday.woooo~

i spent my only precious and free time with my mum and after that boyf.

accompanied mum to the market and i told her about my school...

then in the afternoon,went Bugis with boyf and finished up my homework at the coffee bean.

it was well spent indeed.much laughters after a week :D

heh heh,he has a "surprise" for me next week because.................

I'M TURNING 18 ON TH 29TH APRIL!YAY!

and on the 29th April is Prince William's wedding.how special my date is.ceh!

today,mum is bringing us out to have a dinner and i've no idea where it is.

birthday treat for the 3 siblings who were born on April.

April babies just rock \m/ ehem.

hehehehe...till here then.

xo.

2011-04-16T23:43:00.001+08:00

so how's school for me?anyway,they're some of my new friends/classmates <3

week one of school had ended and so far,im okay with it.

already made new friends on the first day.sadly,there were only 6 malay girls and 2 malay boys in my class.

how awesome-not.well,the chinese aren't bad at all.teehee :P

after 5 days,i think we managed to get along very well already.all thanks to our BLs during the first 3 days of orientation and also our class reps :>

enjoyed much during the telematch.oh yeah,school of business took back our trophy for april intake after losing to school of engineering.heh heh \m/

normal time table started last thursday and i found that my lecturers for all modules are okay lah.

my BEV lecturer is a cute guy,y'kno but he's accent is slightly hard to understand.

i shall stay focus for all lessons.trying hard not to distract myself with internet during lab sessions :P

shall be a good girl okay! (Y)

school had been hectic for me ever since it started.as soon i reached home,it'll be already 7pm.

bath...eat...get to sleep...wake up early morning...school...yep,that how my life is now.

as for now,i'm only free on every friday after 1pm and weekends.i'm happy with it eventho i may seem busy.

that was what i've been wanting anyway...still thinking what cca should i join.what do you think?hmmm....

suddenly i miss my K1 and Nursery kids and not to forget my beloved 5N1.

yes,i really do miss them a lot )':

i miss my lil danish too and yes,i met him today.brought him to the pool and it was his first time.

somehow,today i was his babysister.i did all the stuffs for him.heh.

most of classmates(5N1) will be starting school this monday.same goes to bf.

sigh.everyone will be busy with their life.shall not think about it.if we had the time,we shall meet!

and my birthday is coming so....................

happeh 18th bird day to me! (13 days advance!)

:))))))))))))))))))))))

will update it again when i'm free.i've a lot to tell but once i start to type,i forgot everything.

tsk!

2011-04-09T00:24:00.000+08:00

1 MORE DAY TO SCHOOL! sigh )':

out of the blue,i don't feel excited for it.yes,not at all.

for sure,i'll be missing this longest holidays that i've ever had.

i'm nervous.i'm scared.i feel insecure(wth!but yes).

): i ain't ready for school please.my mood just so down suddenly...

these holidays....

i managed to spend time with him but not to what i expected.

many things had happened between us recently and i just really dont kno lah.

i've been crying a lot since April but only today,i've stopped.

you should be with me but you chose to be with friends.i mean,if its true that you missed me like you told me.

and one more thing.

you kno how hard it is to gain someone trust after he once had betrayed it?

and you did it again just easily without thinking about it.

honestly,idk if i should trust you again ):

one thing for sure,things won't be the same once i start schooling.

no more late night chatting.no more rushing to your house just to cook with you something...

i think i've sacrificed enough for you ok.now,its all up to you.

well,the day before i managed to a little bit of my time with some of my classmates.

yes,just A LITTLE BIT as i had to make all my way to Pasir Ris with him.i promised him.

i aint those kind who broke promises.*peace HAHA.

yesterday was sister's 16 birthday and mum bought that brownie cake.mmm,i loike! (Y)

and my sister doesnt kno what is mum going to get for her.teehee >.<

exactly 3 weeks left and its mine~ Prince William will get married on my birthday! AWWW <3

shall update again tmr/sunday.

goodnight,xo.

2011-04-04T15:55:00.003+08:00

7 MORE DAYS TO SCHOOL! \m/

i've been looking foward to it.well simply because i want to run away from all the problems at home.

yippie yay~ i had enough of complains/shouting/and of course resting!

should've just find a new job since last Feb but its okay.school is starting already.heh.

i'm going to work hard for 2 years and hopefully,i can proceed to a diploma.wheee~

oh yeah,someone is encouraging me to go all the way to degree.thank you so much for that! ^_^

i kno you believe in me.CEH!

but firstly,i need to get some friends who i can rely on.heh :P

hmmmm....

its only 4th of April and i don't kno what's going on with the people around me.

my family,boyfriend or was it just me? D: sigh.

i shall always look on the bright side.

see,school will start next week and my birthday is coming soon too~

how awesome right.

April has been always like this to me since 3 years ago :O

nahhh,forget it.

i shall update till here first.

happy 18th bird day to me! (25 days advance!)

:) :) :) :) :) :)

have a nice day and feel free to ask questions!

2011-03-30T21:30:00.003+08:00

i love them to bits and pieces yo \m/

tho we met for a short period of time,we had fun catching up under the sun/we talked about the old times.

we met up with some teachers too o.O till someone get bored.hahahaha.

we chilled at macd then and someone showed off his MacBook Pro.lol.

used it to take some picturesss/videos.they really made my day and thanks a lot guys :)

i wonder how we would be like as soon school starts D:

will i have friends like them?hmmm *wondering*

the day before,i met up with the 2 girls up there and we came down just to support our juniors.

what happened,girls?!okaylah,it has been done so all the best for your results tmr.

i really like a few of the schools.you could really see them working as one and it was really coordinated.

oh how lucky i was.i got the centre sit.awesome view! ^_^

felt so good after meeting them too.aww!

then i walked to bf house and accompanied him to eat and home sweet home.

waliow,ever since i'm so free like a bird,everyone is taking advantage of me ):

no wonder i never gain any weight.every single day,i've to go out.so not me leh.

cant i stay at home for a day? D:

nevermind,school is starting soon anyway.weee~

and exact one more month and i'm 8teen,babehhh! :D

happy bird day to me~(one month advance!)

2011-03-26T19:17:00.001+08:00

why sick,why? )':

every year,its like a compulsory for me to go clinic.

there's always something that isnt right in my body -.-'

okay,just skip this.i miss him.

err,its okay.i understand that he needs to take care of his dad in the hospital now.

so lets pray for him so he can get well soon(:

oh yeah,i rushed to his house yesterday morning and guess what?hah.

we cooked together ^^ i always love cooking with him but he's a little bit noisy uh.

thank god i was there with him to look out.after eating together,we went off.

didnt get to play monopoly deal even the day before.

eh,i think i've been meeting him this whole week.AWESOMEEE!

must really use this free time with him before i start schooling.

after that, i spent my day watching Point Of Entry and playing CSI on fb :D

since when i got addicted to these stuffs,huh? wait,may be since i went to Science Centre.hehehe.

today,did nothing much.was just slacking at home the whole day.

texting bf and i just finished watching Every Singaporean Son on youtube.

i can imagine already how it is like going to be 2 years later =\

:O its already 7pm and i just realised that.

im thinking if i should do some volunteer work at Darul Ma'wa.

fyi,i pity those kids there.yes,i really do love kids and it hurts me to see them if they were being abused/abandoned.

i'm ready to face some problems since i was once a pre-school teacher.somehow,a few of them has the same problem as them.

so how?*sigh shall ask my mum about it.

alright,shall end this post.need to eat medicine.

have a nice day,xo.

2011-03-23T19:50:00.002+08:00

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii(:

may be i shall start blogging back.i've lots to update but i just dont kno where should i start.

oh yeah,those photos above were taken last monday.

thought of watching movie but ended up,we spent time at skypark.

met him again just now and played monopoly deal.of course,he won lor D:

8-7,not bad right our scores?we also killed some zombies :O and time just flies so fast.

will be meeting him again tmr.yes,had been spending all my free time with him <:

life has been great lah with him around.he knows me the best.

we found out something and seriously,i just dont kno what else to say lah.

just so you kno,it hurts me a lot.some people just dont seem happy with my life and they'll just find ways to destroy my happiness.

i aint going to say the person's name here of course.

can this person just leave me alone?*sigh

let just wait and see.

hmm,anyhooo,i kno i've not yet update about my O'level results.

well im moving on(: and i hope i'll do well for this.

someone inspired me a lot and i really hope i can go all the way to Uni.i'm serious.

so school will start on th 11th April.i've a few weeks of holidays left!

about the course i took,i've already graduated from the school.

at least,i've the fundementals course of early childhood which what i've been wanting to do actually.

i'm satisfied with it since i passed all the modules.only one of it was graded 'D'.heh.

sadly,i didnt get to join them during the graduation ceremony.

right naoooo,im looking foward to school~

err,what else eh? =\

thats all for now lah.im hungryyyyyyyyyyy.

happy reading,xo!

2010-12-11T23:21:00.002+08:00

i've been spending some time with th boy above since last thursday after i had my training.

so i made my way to wm and met him at the coffeebean then he sent me back home.friday,we met again after my training and he came all the way to Kallang and fetched me,heh.we went to Vivo to have our early dinner at LJS and chilled for awhile before headed back home.we met again today at 1130 but i was late though.hehehe.so today we met at the coffeebean again then boarded the bus to Lucky Plaza and had lunch.he gave me a treat ^^ then,we went to Botanic Garden before going to grandm's house. so yeah,satisfied enough that i managed to spend a bit of time for him(: so yeah,all the best for your tests this coming week! then you can keep fetching me.hehehe.

shall end here first.i'll continue more about my training tmr.

need a lot of rest as i want to get rid of this panda eyes.ugh,ugly please.

goodnight,xo.

2010-12-04T18:57:00.002+08:00

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy(:

i'm so enjoying my day because i got to rest.

it had been a long week for me and each day,i spent a total more or less of 10 hours which i included my journey to and fro.yes,i needed(no,still need) to travel from one end to the other.

waking up early,squeezing in myself into the train... =\

despite all these,i'm enjoying with what i'm doing and i guessed i've made the right choice.

at the same time,i'm learning more new things and gaining experiences,trying to adapt the new environment,making new friends...and the list goes on.so yeah,i'm loving it*insert heart shape*

well,of course being me,i still have that feeling of nervous since its my first time.

i've prepared everything that i've been told because i've seen it for a few years.it isn't an easy job,okay.you need to have the passion in it like they said.

i'm looking foward for more things to come ^^ and i hope i will make it and just think positively.CEH!

=.='' hahaha.well,yeah i'm serious.

are you still wondering what job am i doing?hrm,*giggles* i'm a pre-school teacher ^^

currently,going through the course now then attachment.everything was provided by them so i didn't have to fork out a single cents.now,i'm praying hard to get good results so i can continue with this journey and also they will sponsor for me the diploma course.so,lets take this opportunity.hehehe.

i'm glad that everything are settling down and i managed to catch some time with him.

after all,it was a good start for this month.*yay

what else eh?oh yes! i went to Universal Studio Singapore again on last Wed.much better than the first time that i went and managed to take all the rides.had really fun there,duh.still waiting for the big roller coaster to open and will be going again the next year.heh :P

i've uploaded the photos in my fb so you should know what to do eh.hahaha.

okay,i think i need to read up some malay books/newspapers because i think my malay is worse than my english now.this was one of the conversation between my sister.

grandm: anak siapa tu? (whose child is that?)

me:arwah mak punya abang.(my late mum's brother)

sister:huh?*repeated what i said*

eh,kau cakap arwah mak tau.(you said late mum not late brother)

me:*tried correcting the sentence by heart and laughed*

so you guys got what i was trying to say?hahaha,well it happened many times already.the words were jumbled all over the places.heh.alright,i'm done.

wait,did i told you that i knocked on to the Cotton On's door this morning?

hahahaha,yeah very clumsy i know.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

so stay tune for more updates.most probably,i will update weekly if i had the time.

take care!~

tumblr nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ^^

2010-11-30T23:10:00.004+08:00

in less than an hour, its December.

i don't think it will be a good start for me as i'm going to start working.

well,its not really about working but its about spending time with my loved ones especially him.

i knew you too well so don't hide it from me.

i'm really sorry that i have to start work so soon because i have my own reasons and i really hope you understand.i promise whenever i have the free time,i'll meet you.

anyway,your common tests are coming right?do study hard for it,my dear.

the way you replied my texts were so obvious. *sigh

tomorrow will be my last day to enjoy.i have been waiting for it.i just need a little breather.it will be much better if someone could bring me to overseas.heh,i doubt so.

it is going to be a busy month for me.i hope i can attend all the gatherings that they're planning.

working+him+gatherings = D:

seriously,i have no working experience before so all the best to myself eh.

shall sleep now.need to wake up early morning tmr and hopefully,it won't rain.

goodnight,xo.

i promise baby,i will spend all my time with you if i'm not working.

meanwhile,you study hard for your upcoming tests.all the best,dear(:

i'll miss you.

2010-11-28T01:07:00.007+08:00

i wish there's always Red Camp like going to school every day.

i feel so neglected here and it has been weeks.(its not him who neglect me)

things are out of control.i don't know to who i should let out my feelings.

ah,lets drop the topic first.

move on ...

what camp?

RED CAMP 7!

Red Camp 7 at NP was more than awesome i should say.the SLs did their job and it was very well done.anyway,not only the SLs but also to those who made this thing happened.

even after 4 days,all those cheers and screaming and dancing are still playing in my mind.with facebook/twitter,it made each and every one of us bonded.hopefully,we'll stay in contact and keep the page alive.besides that,the school tour made me open up my mind to see more courses that i could choose from.i've been always wanting Early Childhood but hell yeah,i still have another 11 courses to think =\ (HELP ME!) i don't really know what am i interested in.tsk.

i'm praying that there would be an outing for the Centurions.if possible,lets make it for the whole Red Camp 7 ^^ i miss every single moments,a lot.

i wish there's no ending for this.i'm spamming my own wall with videos from the Red Camp 7 and stuffs.too obsess with it*hearts*

now,i'm still hunting for jobs because i need to settle some stuffs.

as stated above,i feel neglected.i felt like a stranger.life has never been easy for me.

i just need someone to be there for me all the time.i'm just mentally weak right now.

i need a little breather.you might see me laughed but lot of things are going through in my mind.

Red Camp wasn't enough for me )'=

to this handsome cutest boy here(he admits himself),thanks for being there.

i know you're busy with your studies and i appreciate that you still had your time for me.

and also thanks for giving our love another chance.

(': ily,xo.

2010-11-20T18:49:00.009+08:00

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii [;

things have been out of control these days.

even though i'm done with my school but i'm still feeling stress.

lots of things are on my mind and i wish someone could really understand me.

well,lets put it aside first.

this morning,i decided to join my siblings to go for a swim.

i kept shivering.i guess its because it had been a long time i didn't swim ;O

i forgot when was the last time i swam.

so yeah,i enjoyed my time with them and it was just in time that we got out from the pool because it was going to rain.

hrm,accompanied Muben to polyclinic yesterday since he fell sick.he should be feeling better now since he's with his friends now at town.tsk.

then,met my siblings again at a game shop.its nearby my house.

oh yar! did i tell you that they had a beyblade tournament today? hah.

so my youngest brother left with 2 rounds to complete but sadly,he didnt.

lots of them did join and some cried because they lose.its cute to see those kids.

alright,now i shall change the topic to my graduation night on last thursday.

fetched Fatin at the bus stop since she needed help from my sister for make up and after we done,we boarded the bus to JP to do our hair.we waited for Idi and Mubin there and took 157.along the way,Rara and Shafiq boarded the bus and we went together.we were nervous because of how did we look.hah! met the rest there and ....

it was a night to remember.i always love my class spirit ever since i joined the class.

i missed being in N1 for two years.

every one of us looked awesome that night.

we screamed for our dearest,Faiz.congrats yeah.

i'll miss every single moments that we had as a class.

i've uploaded the photos in my fb(:

have a nice long holidays,friends.we'll meet around soon ^^

and of course,good luck for your results!

so now,i can't wait for Red Camp 7 ! at NP and it will be this Mon till Wed.

and Thurs,i have a job interview.

i shall keep myself occupied now.it'll be bored if i were to rot at home only and no money );

heh.till here then.

toodles~

2010-11-15T22:16:00.002+08:00

jobs hunting with cousin,Suliana was awesome.

we had more like bonding session because its been a long time we didnt do this.we'll have another outing soon with my sister too.hehehe.

from Raffles to Causeway to JP.had to meet mama first.

had late lunch/early dinner with Mubin at KFC too since he ended his lesson slightly early today.

then had to go home.

why did she act this way?

last saturday,met Mubin and search for my dress.yes,graduation night in 3 days time.

many caught my eyes but i've chose the simple one.

so how?anyway,it'll be held near my house.tsk.so i wont really follow the theme which is 'Hollywood'.i just hope no girls will be same as mine.heh heh.

alright so along the way,something happened.i dont wish to elaborate here.

just do what you wish,okay?as long you're happy with what you're doing.

i'm tired and i'm sure you're too.

finally,O'levels ended 4 days ago.FREEDOM,not )=

don't ask for the reason.thats the reason why im finding a job so fast.

i just don't want to be like YOU!

i aint really happy right now.

alright,blog is much or indeed very simple now.its time for me to go tumblr.

goodnight,xo.

2010-11-15T11:08:00.002+08:00

a slight relief after 12th Nov.i shall not talk about the papers and shall not even think about the results.of course,im hoping for the best.who wouldnt?but not now.i had enough of the dreams.

well,everyone smells th freedom but not really for me.

so i'd rather be in school but since im having my long break,im going to find a job.

i just dont understand her.why is she still controlling me?

i dont smoke,i dont drink,i dont do stupid things.you've never take your time to know who are friends.excuse me,my brain is still working and i do think whats right and whats wrong.

i aint trying to be rude but come on.so tell me how could i do the chores when you dont let me out.even when im going out,i dont usually ask you for money.pffft.

this is totally frustrating.i need to get a job soon.i dont want to rot at home like you who always sleep and eat and sleep and eat in the past.tsk.

shall update a proper one soon.i gotta go.

xo.

2010-09-21T16:01:00.005+08:00

Its been 2 more days till 4 months of not updating my blog.

Oh gosh,i miss it a lottt.Trust me (:

May be i was too engrossed with tumblr till i forgot about my 4 years blog.Aww,sorry )=

Shall change my the song and may be background after this.

So the last time i updated my blog was about my MT O'Level and i got my results a few days after the National Day.It remained as last year's and i decided not to retake because may be that is the highest i could get.Shall forget about ~~Malay~~ at this moment and focus more on other subjects especially my English.Wait,why am i here in the first place?Hah! Im too bored and alone at home currently.

Anyway,the prelim is ending tomorrow with just shading 60 ovals.(EH?)

After that,we can hooray hooray for awhile only and get back to intensive revisions for 4 solid weeks.

After tomorrow's paper,im going out raya with friends.Im lazy but i want to collect more $$.

Hahahahaha^^ nah,just wanted to distress myself.

Speaking of raya,i didnt feel the celebration at all,not.Well i guess,its because of my examinations around o.O By the way,i've been adding many of ex-schoolmates in fb.Most of them are in poly now and for some,they are like me.Still stuck in our secondary schools' uniform |=

Lets give our best for this last lap yeah ^^

Oh yeah,i met with Syafiqah,one of my ex schoolmates and also a friend from Mendaki which is her friend too at LJS,IMM.Her friend was Muben's ex schoolmate.Cool,enough?Lol.

There are many things to catch up with.We'll make sure we have a proper outing with the rest too after our O'levels.Misses them.

She said that im too skinny before i went off and i said it back to her.Eh,i thought im gaining weight?*Sigh

May be because i've been falling sick )=

Life has been very hectic for me but i guess i managed to pull it through.Although,i've been feeling unwell and only He knows how painful it is.I shall continue blogging whenever i need to distress myself the next time.I want to get 'Eat,Pray,Love' novel.Ok,i know this is kind of random but i've been reading the same novels.I prefer reading since i've not much time to catch it in movies/online.Anyway,my English teacher told me reading can improve our English.LOL!

Till here then.Oh yes,you can find me in Twitter now too(= but for now,i aint going to update it often.Many things are needed to be done.See ya in my next post.

Take care,xoxo.

2010-05-23T01:15:00.004+08:00

8 MORE DAYS TO MT O'LEVEL EXAMINATION!

31 MAY 2010

ALL THE BEST TO ALL WHO ARE TAKING!

anyway,i think i wont be updating here anymore.
check me on my tumblr.
xoxo.

2010-05-16T18:05:00.002+08:00

the retarded side of us.

hrm,that was on last friday.
finally met him after one week and i just met him just now and yesterday too.haa~
so yesterday,we watched 'The Last Song'.i knew ive been repeating it again.i posted it in my fb and plurk too.well,it was awesome and thumbs up!i thought that someone would be really fall asleep but guess what?! HE CRIED! *awww.he kept denying it -.-
after it ended,went to Vivo and spent about an hour at the skypark.then,he sent me to Redhill since i wanted to meet the baby and grandm too.thanks for the day,dear.

I FLUNK ALL MY 6 SUBJECTS FOR MYE! )=
thats the truth,duh.and i knew that wasnt my best.i didnt put the efforts for certain subjects.
i agreed with what she said.whats the point of the teachers being lenient when marking our papers?because at the end of the day,we're taking O'levels which will never included our ~~CAs and SAs~~ marks.its drilling time and no more ~~slacking~~.
well anyway,its just mid year so i shall not feel disheartened by all the teachers.
by the way,looking on the bright side,i scored well for my english paper one and i cant wait to get the paper tomorrow ^ ^ hehehe.
so friends,lets give our all and prove the teachers at the end of year! :D
received our structured classes for the first two weeks of june holidays.well,i dont mind because its for my own good.and the day after my last day of structured class,i'll enjoy as much as i want for the whole day before i get back to books.
hehehe ^ ^ i cant wait for that day to come.

i feel like slapping a rude guy who has hurt a friend of mine.i really have to do something to stop all this and so my friend can lead a happy life.i hate seeing her in that condition.
ive been in her shoes and i really know how she feels.it had been months she kept to herself.
i do pity her a lot.*sigh
be strong,love! we'll get rid of that jerk soon from your life.
oh yes,anyway idk if he/she would read this but please eh bear in mind,dont judge the book by its cover.
you hurt my two dearest friends.go and think about it.
(:

there's school tomorrow and lil sister is away for 3 days camp.im so going to be alone at night )=
take care.

2010-05-13T13:52:00.006+08:00

finally,mye ended yesterday but not o'levels.
ive exactly 18 more days before sitting for my malay o'level.
im wondering how ~~badly~~ ive done for my mock test and mid year.haa ~

firstly,im sorry for not updating my blog and im kind of missing it.
so now,let me see.what shall i blog about?hrm.
i dont want to talk about my papers.lets just wait till the results.anyway,i can see how are my results like.hehe.

i love that pretty plump girl.she's chatty too.she has never failed to make my day full with laughters.we had never fight before.
i knew her since we were secondary one.we began to be close when we were in secondary two.
we did share a bit of secrets then.we were dropped to N2 when we were in secondary three.
well,we were not as close as before but we were still good friends till secondary four.we made it to secondary five and now,we are as close as before.we share most of the secrets together even the dirty little things.she has been always there for me whenever im down.thank you for all that,nur shamirah.
and i was wondering what went wrong with her yesterday.hahaha,we really had so much fun.
thank god,i dont feel lonely after all.i still have her and other friends.
oh yes,before i forgot.thanks fahmy for the treat.yes,mey and i had breakfast and late lunch at macd after our papers.during lunch,thought of having only apple pie but we had more than that.haha,i could only hear our laughters there<3

today,i was supposed to spend my day either at ecp cycling with fahmy and his gf,nana/marina barrage with classmates/town with mey and cika.but i decided to stay at home since i totally not in mood for the first time.i dont want to elaborate it here.
all i know,im tired of all this.as long as the letter with me,i'll be fine.
yes i know,i owe you something from the previous post but not now.i'll find a right time to post it.

last saturday night,went out with family to the new bridge; helix bridge.it was damn packed like sardines.typical singaporeans.hah,it was just opened and you know that 'kiasu' attitude.
hoho,my ~~dad~~ is one of them because he brought us there.hahaha,no lah.well,you should go there at night of course because its much beautiful.so my family walked all the way to the casino.fhew,i was drenched because of perspiring.haa~
the next day,went to mama's new house.finally,i got to meet my cousins.it has been a long time we didnt meet.i guess the last time was during raya.things arent the same as before.
if not we would have meet on every friday.i miss those moments.to kak rina,be strong and i know you can get all through this and last long with your bf.bila nak kahwin,uh? ^ ^
hehe.

anyway,have you watch the video that the malay guy slapped a girl?idk if it was an act or what.
i agreed with one of my classmates.the girl seemed to enjoy it.i didnt see her cry.lol.
typical teenagers nowadays.i pity them sometimes.ceh! lol.
i shall stop here for now.oh my,tag me please.my blog is so dead.haa~
feels like changing the template a bit.hrm.
take care :}

have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?
well,you can try sleeping in my bed.
lonely,only.

2010-05-01T21:27:00.004+08:00

it was only 1st of May and it turned to be a bad day for me.
im hurting right now )= last month,i fell sick for weeks and now? *sigh
sometimes,i wish im far away from here where i could have all my time alone.

i know you'd just say dont bother them as long we're still together but i couldnt take it anymore.i had enough of everything.
they snatched you away from me,they gave me their two-faced,they said we dont suit for each other and later?whats more?
she started it first by saying he isnt compatible with me.i felt like laughing out but when i read for the second time,i could feel my heart breaking.
we've come this far for three freaking years! what about her?why did she has to say that?
was she trying to say she's way better than i do?i had never disturb their lives but why do they have to come and appear in mine?too many questions are playing in my head.
what is next?i just beg to those bitches to stay away from my life,please.
you people are too much.i'd really appreciate that.
family?i know i should stay out from this but i couldnt help it.stop being like an immature kid.
you all are adults and please act like one.you cant just simply break our relationships.i hope everything would be fine soon.
*sigh )=

currently,im busy with the mid year exams.well,2 subjects were done and more papers are coming starting from this wednesday and all the way till the 12th may.
im left with exactly 30 more days before malay o'level papers.my heart is beating fast. -.- do it once and thats it.i dont wish to sit for the paper again.
to all my friends out there,'all the best!'
had been meeting boyf late afternoon at macd and did some revisions there.thanks for making your way here although you were sick(:

yesss,im officially 17 years old now! *yay
thank you so much for all the birthday wishes and surprises.i'd love to share one of the special presents that i got from someone one day.
oh yeah,to ifah and khidir thanks for the birthday cake.hehehe.it was such a blast day for me after 2 years ^ ^ some of you may know what i mean.
haa~

so today was a public holiday.spent my day at grandm's house but before that i got myself 'Dear John' novel.
yippie~ ive yet to catch the movie but too busy.i want to watch 'The Last Song' but im still having papers )=
its okay because ive read the novel till i cried(=
i ate a lot at my grandm's house and now,im skipping my dinner.i think im gaining weight.thumbs up! ^^
haa,i better get back to books now before i start to regret.
will be back soon okayyy.
take careeee,xoxo.

2010-04-21T17:04:00.001+08:00

dont ask me how i did for my practical.please,at least not now.
i totally had a bad day just now.
i held on my tears when doing it but i let it out during the next lesson )=
the next minute,i was slightly mad over something when i got the reply from him ))=
thank god,i had my FRIENDS and the last two lessons to cheer me up a bit.
next thing i've to prepare is math and malay mock test this friday.
then,mid year exams which will start on this monday with english first.
im so worn out.i just hate today );
sigh*

2010-04-17T17:50:00.001+08:00

i love this,a lot but i love my buddy more!

finally,im done with my cca.*yay
i miss those dancers who were from my batch.i wonder who are going to represent for our school for the syf next year.those dancers arent enough.i suggest you might as well just close down =P you can see it for yourself but whatever it is,i wish them all the best.
so just now,i did a mistake which i think it was obvious.hahaha,im done!
we,the dancers must take a lot of photos.haha,im done uploading it in my fb.more to come from idk whose camera.heh.quick,im waiting! i went home straight after that since i lost my mood.

got the mid year exams time-table.it's just around the corner.
this coming week,ive two mock exams - malay and math.both on the same day which is on this friday and wednesday its my f&n o level practical.im just freaking nervous to sit for those papers.dont ask for the reason.to all my friends,all the best for your examinations! ^ ^

april has been sucks for me since the year 2008.ive been falling sick and things had been haywire whenever it comes to april.no papers fall on my birthday this year.*fhew
i just hate the month that i was born ever since that year ive said earlier.boohoo )=
thats how im living my life currently.so dont bother asking how's my life right now.haa.
alright,so im going to abandon this blog soon.dont ask me to update or whatever people.i hope you understand.
currently,waiting for boyf to online back since he said he wanted to take a nap.*grrr
anyway,happy 17th birthday to hafizah and istifar!(=
im done now,xoxo.

2010-04-14T14:54:00.004+08:00

alhamdulilah,my cough now is much better(= im feeling good now.yay*
except for my voice which still sounds like im a man.lol.
will be back to school tomorrow and will be a long day for me if there's a speech day rehearsal.
=o 2.4km run too.i know ive been leaving my blog.sorry readers because i wont be update that often anymore since mid year is coming.
guess what? my o'level f&n practical is on next wednesday )=
wish me all the best,yeah? ^ ^ yesss,its O'LEVEL.
then,up next will be my o'level malay paper which is on th 31st May.time is running and i feel th pressure.tell me how many days left to it?!oh,drop it first.

last monday,had a speech day rehearsal but i didnt dance so i sat there and watched the whole rehearsal.i overheard some conversations.well,its kind of unpleasant when i heard it.
it was between some girls and they were there just to watch the dance performance.when they had done with it,they started criticizing the whole thing which made me fuming with anger inside but i ignored.come on,they had a long day and what did you expect?im sure they had given their very best and if you dislike it,keep those comments to yourself.yes,i saw with my own eyes that they did mistakes but you didnt have to say like that.forget it.
the whole day,i was being teased by my classmates and all.they love to hear me laugh with my rock and sexy voice.heh.and even boyfriend too when he fetched me after school.
some purposely questioned me just to hear me talking.grrr.

he's starting school next week which is good because he doesnt have to face his new ps3 for 24/7.heh.but then im going to miss him a lot.its okay,i should be focusing more on my o'levels and be like him or better.hahaa.we still have the weekends,right love?
he's been sweet these days and idk why but it feels like im falling in love again.aww*
he knows me the best and he knows how to bring back my smile whenever im mad at him.
i love you,xoxo.

urm,currently im reading 'the last song' novel by nicholas sparks.im sure you heard the song 'when i look at you' by miley cyrus.yes,the movie will be out soon.its just another typical girl with family problems and all.yeah,miley cyrus is playing the main character.i want to watch 'my sister's keeper' with ain this friday before our malay structured but sadly,im having f&n structured.see how busy i could be )= will see how.
heh,im done editing my blog.its nothing much anyway.
before i end this post,i want to share some conversations.

(my family and i were at imm last sat)
mum: lets get some ice cream. (gave me that evil grins look)
me:dont want lah.(im sick)
mum:ok,i get for you a burger.
me:no,i dont want.i want to go home.
mum:okay then.i buy for your siblings first.

next,
grandm:have you eaten your medicine?(in malay lah)
me:yes,im eating soon.
grandm:good.dont be afraid to eat it.
me:(i was like .... okay,for what to be afraid of?)

lastly,
me:eh nisa,help me to close the door.
nisa's friend:eh,why your sister's voice so sexy?

lol.hahaa,i gotta go now.
get some medicine and do some revisions.need to get my brain cells ready for tomorrow.
wait,happy birthday to my lil bro and all april babies.i know most of my family members were born in april.haaa,coolz.
toodles! ^ ^

2010-04-10T16:11:00.002+08:00

i love this! ive been watching it for many times.
im currently watching it again.there's another one.i'll put th link at th end of my post(:
i'll update this blog of mine soon.i promise.
this whole week,ive been sick and now ive no voice at all which really irritates me.
sometimes i feel im going to die soon )=
i really need my voice back for my mid year oral this coming week.
pray for me that i'll get well soon and so i can update a proper one.alright?
xoxo.
he's back and so?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CEEZFJKfG8Y

2010-04-03T21:05:00.004+08:00

I'M DOWN WITH FEVER AND MIGRANE.I COULD FEEL MY BACKBONE IS GETTING WORSE )=

look at my cheeks.gosh,so chubby and now i lose weight.that was two years ago if im not wrong.
feels slightly better now.as usual,i had fun at mendaki on every saturday.
sadly,shafiq wasnt there if not it'd be complete and would be more chaotic.hahaha.
wth.i wonder if i could get th grades that some teachers targetted for me.
b-three for math and a-two for english.that is too high for me but i'll try to work for it.
its april now and a month left to malay o'level.sigh*
oh yes! did shuttle run,sit up and inclined pull up for napha test last thursday.
and now,cramps everywhere )=
anyway,four stations passed! please,dont tell me th next p.e lesson ive to do 2.4km run.screams* ah,i cant escape from it.
this week,ive been seeing some ex hong kah lites coming back to take their cert.
i miss them(my batch)so much.finah,mabel and clara came to see us dancing last thursday.
hope to meet them again one day.

alhamdullilah that things have settled down now for me.
to my dearest buddy,i hope you're fine now.im there if you need any listening ears.
please know yourself what you're doing.
im freaking bored now.boyf is watching football.ehhh,MANU VS CHELSEA.evil grins* heh.
i want to close my blog soon i guess.ive no idea on what to update.
boyfrieeend!text me soon please.i miss you,love.
alright,my head starts spinning.
goodbye,xoxo.

before they outlaw the kiss
baby, give me one last hug.

2010-03-28T16:56:00.005+08:00

well,th weekends are going to be over soon.sigh*
okay nevermind.skip that.currently chatting with my ex-schoolmate,fairis.
and i want to update this blog.
ive something to tell.

i hate mendaki.no,i mean my tuitors plus th boys there )=
they're so mean - not. hehehe,they're my live wires on every saturday morning(=
just like yesterday.i wonder why th both tuitors always aim on me.grrr.
my eng tuitor just realise that im th blur one.i am,yes i know. ^ ^
and he demoralized me somehow but i learnt something from that,okay.
this is why i'd want to go mendaki every saturday eventhough i feel worn out after five days of school.
speaking about school,ive been like th eager beaver these days.i want to be happy happy girl but still need to prepare for my o'levels.
many events are coming up soon like th speech day.our dance has yet to finish.
should i talk about th graduation night?okay,may be not now.haha,shall be thankful to have th both of them(th y.h).oh yeah! last friday,mey and i cleaned up th classroom after school till 1400.its much better now of course.i had a backache after that and went home straight.
uhuh,th structured classes start tomorrow and again th time-table changed.

yay* finally,i got th song in my blog.can someone tell me about th 9th episode?
i didnt get to watch till th end since i was at my grandm's crib )=
i heard tonight is th last episode and is a must for me to watch it! wont be tagging them to th night market later.hahaha,shall get them to buy some foods for me will do ^ ^

i miss going to school with him.
i miss having milo with him in th morning.
i miss having breakfast with him at macd/ljs.

i miss him winking at me every morning assembly.
i miss eating behind him and disturbing him during recess time.
i miss smiling at him when we bumped in school.
i miss waiting for him after my class had finished.
sigh* it totally feels awkward but ive tried and still trying to adapt to it.
i want to meet khairul mubin soon before he starts school and gets busy.
i miss you.

i shall end here now and finish up my leftover assignments.
there would be both eng and malay oral for me tomorrow maybe.awesome,right?
take care(=

and i want to fall in love you again

2010-03-26T16:23:00.002+08:00

its up to you now.i cant decide anymore (:

laughing is an instant vacation -milton berle
there's only one person knew why ive been laughing a lot this days.
especially on th last wed<3 and you saw what happened th next minute.
and i'd like to thank her for being there and still entertain my craps.
once again,a million thank to nur shamirah bte sahmad for everything.
=)

2010-03-22T20:25:00.003+08:00

its a new term with only 5 weeks.
new time-table.
oh tell me,im left with how many days to my malay o'level?thats freaking fast.

to my dearest classmates who has my used to be chemistry teacher,dont worry.
she's a good teacher with so many years of experienced in teaching.
i used to dislike her because i didnt understand what was she trying to teach.
is just th matter of you want to learn or not.she knows malay well so watch what you're saying.hahaha.
i was kind of unhappy because i had to seperate with mey.so i had to leave her there and now im sitting next to azli for comb science lessons.that irritating freak,hahaha.jkjk.
th new time-table is much better i guess.so today or this week had no structured classes.
woohoo ^ ^
mey and i decided to have hot-fudge sundae at macd after school then.oh wait,im sorry to hear about cika's uncle.hope she's doing fine now.
it was heavy downpour suddenly so mey had to send me to th bus stop since i didnt bring my umbrella.(mey,we were so sweet right?hehehe)
and after that,i was totally drenched )=
i had a massive headache then so had my rest and now,here i am updating.

oh yes,so thats my new cousin.he totally resembles his brothers' look.
i love cuddling him a lot.or should i say with all babies?hahaha.sorry boyfriend =P
i love to cuddle you too,my dear.haiya.
tomorrow is th start of napha test.why th hell we should do this test?omgee,i hate this.
right,ain?hahaha.hope to start with standing broad jump first,can?
thats all for now.take care.
(;

that should be me.

2010-03-19T21:35:00.002+08:00

why do we say things we cant take back?
why do we miss what we never had?

sigh* something is totally bothering me right now.i dont want to accuse you for anything yet but from what i could see,nevermind.
i kept asking myself - should i give in,again? if i did again,then im just being selfish to myself.oh,forget it.

met love today.it was nothing much.
ive a new cousin.yay* meeting him tomorrow after tuition.
i cant wait to carry him.i <3 babies.
short post today(:

i wish you could take it back
but it’s too late, it’s too late.

2010-03-16T12:52:00.006+08:00

love me without fear.trust me without questioning.
need me without demanding.want me without restrictions.
accept me without change.desire me without inhibitions.
and LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM.

i got that from this website : http://no-controversy.blogspot.com
try and read it.good advices are up there for some of you who may need it?hrm.
oh,okay.may be some of you had gone into th website and i was just too slow.i admit i am slow.ask boyfriend how slow can i be.heh.alright,so where was i?hrm,yeah.
i was half way reading it and decided to update my blog for awhile.
well,i found this nice.thanks to sister for it.haa~
th funniest part was a girl who sounded so desparate by asking a guy's no.
thats Earth.you can easily find these kind of people only on this planet.lol.
there's about friendships too.
at th end of th day,its still up to individuals.He gives us a brain so use it! (=
dont be an idiot,ok?

so yesterday,i had physic and food & nutrition structured classes BUT for th first time,(HAHAHA!)
i skipped physic.uh-oh (o,O) well,i was still being good girl by attending th food & nutrition class.hehehe,besides that i did finish my work even before 1700.
mey,wani and i captured some photos using th webcam in th kitchen.hehehe ^ ^
i wasnt in mood but with them around,i had a great time.
my teacher was busy gardening and i thought i wanted to try and do it too.like she said if you want to ease your mind,go there and help to take care of th plants after school hours or what.
but on th second thought,i didnt want to dirty my shirt.hahaha,what an excuse?! lol.
at night,did nothing much except by giving lil sister a helping hand with her job.
yay! there isnt any classes for me today.you may have your five days off including th weekends,it'll be seven days but for me,i've only three days.yes! three freaking days ONLY.sigh*
alright,will end this post with some of th photos taken.

lastly,i miss you a lot khairul mubin bin mohd amin.i really do.
we've been busy these days but i hope to meet you soon,love.
forgive me,will you?i love you.
gotta go now.meeting mum at jp later.
happy holidays,friends!(=

i said i dont want to walk on this earth
if i got to do it solo.

2010-03-13T15:31:00.001+08:00

2 subjects,CMI !!! )=
i need to buck up for these two and a bit on th rest.
oh please,atiqah! endure this for just a few months left.
breathes in,breathes out*
holidays = school = intensive revisions start
boohoo*

2010-03-06T20:57:00.002+08:00

thanks for th wonderful day,dear.
accompanied him to get his stuffs around th town.
seriously,he took nearly half an hour in each shop.lol,bedek.hahaha.
before that,had our lunch and he forced me to eat a lot as usual.i know you're jealous of my body.can never gain weight.hahaha but i will one day once i get pregnant. =|
entertaining each other's crap<3
oh yes,please let me listen to your singing again )=
hehehe.i love you(: (: (:

i dont know who im gonna talk to now at school
but I know im laughing on the car ride home with you
dont know how long it's gonna take to feel okay
but i know i had the best day with you today.

2010-03-05T20:01:00.005+08:00

hehehe,sorry my dearest readers.i thought i dont have anyone reading my blog.
well,its unprivate now.
ive been much busy with school like assignments,tests and structured classes.
i just realised they started th structured class much earlier for this year than last year.
anyway,i went back home last wednesday once i reached th school.haa,was unwell.
thanks azli for accompanying me while waiting for my dad to pick me up.
hahaha,at last we did talk.
boyf,idi and feeq watched me having my nap through webcam.grrr*
i know you're jealous.hehehe,this specially goes to idi ^ ^
on that day itself,3 teachers didnt came into class which was awesome.lol.
oh yeah,had been meeting boyf these days since he's free now(up till this month only).
and he did help me a lil bit here and there in my studies.thanks love<3

eventhough th o'levels seem to be a few months to go but i could already feel th atmosphere.out of 6 subjects,im afraid to sit for english.idk why.haa. i may be good in paper 1 but not in paper 2.sigh* hah,i remembered that my class scared another class on last tuesday. i couldnt help it but giggled with my friends around me who knew th inside joke. hehehe,but its a fact. ^ ^ goodluck people!

hrm...
happy 25th monthsary,love.i do miss spending time with you especially during th school days.i still love you though(=
i remembered vividly that i cried on th 5th March 2008 exactly when th clock striked 12.
wth.hahaha.if only you were there.
and i got a text from uthman from s'pore,wishing me.lol.
geez,one of th memories~
apart from that,this one would always be in my mind.hehehe,th way you wanted me to be yours on th 050307.i like th date cause it seems special.that was 3 years ago.
hahaa,how adorable you were that time.
besides that,happy 2nd anniversary to all my twinning peeps.
i'd like to go there again with th same people.we laughed,ate,slept,cried and all together.
i watched th video that azli made for us just few moments ago.time flies real fast.
alright,i'll end here.im still thinking of whether to change my blogskin but none has attracted me )=
there's tuition tomorrow.busy busy busy.
lalala ~

dont you want to be th lost and found?

2010-02-28T21:33:00.003+08:00

whats wrong with some people these days?
you think you're "good good" ah?thats what sister said.
ah,whatever lah.as long you're happy with it.to me it was just some creativity.
even most of them agreed.i bet some of you knew what was i talking about.
drop that.
hohoho! whats up with that (insertword) ? now then you want to include me?
oh,forget it.ini lah manusia manusia sekarang.two faced,idiot.

today,celebrated parents' 18th annivesary at swensen's.finally,i got what ive been craving for.hehehe ^ ^
it supposed to be on th 29th Feb(o,O) haa ~
before that,went to collect my bursary.yay* money money money.it means my work last year is paid off.do well in studies and more will come.
i met syafiqah there finally.i wish we had all th time but we had to go off.
someone was missing which was nina.i miss her and th other girls too.i heard there'd be reunion soon.yay*

i cant be bothered with some people anymore.
if you're happy with what you're doing now,go ahead alright.
its tiring for me to entertain your attitudes.
what boyf said was true last night.th world will end soon with all th global warming and people like that in this planet.
alright i better end here and pack my bag.
goodnight,xoxo.

2010-02-27T17:37:00.004+08:00

i want to catch this movie(dear john),anyone?hrm.
i shall not bring boyfriend because he might be sleeping.hahaha.
with only love letters to keep their relationship goes on when both are far apart.
i was only 10 days away from him but what happened?hahaha.
i even did call him once or twice and text him sometimes.
its funny when looking back at those times.haa.

well,this morning as usual went mendaki.hehehe,sorry faiz.we kept teasing him.(o.O)
so during th english class,we went through about free writing and also he told us about th PROs and CONs to go JC/MI/Poly/ITE.
wth wth wth(!!!) i never thought it would be that troublesome.
next was math and it was nothing much.
oh yesss! i wanted to share about what happened yesterday morning.hehehe.
but firstly please please please im not trying to boast myself.im just proud of myself that for th first time i did an english essay with not much of mistakes.
for those who didnt know whose my english teacher is,go and find out yourself okay?
clue:she used to teach boyfriend too.
i admitted myself that im quite weak in english but somehow th essay that she marked yesterday made me smiled.i dont be too compalacent about it.
just let it be a good start for me to somehow encourage me more on doing better.

so i still have my comb sci and comb humans to brush up.
and in a blink of eye its already end of febuary.so im left with about 7-8 months to O levels.
my malay paper will be on th 31st May which is 2 months left.
yeah i've sat for th paper last year and got a B3 but th school........you should know yourself okay?hahaha.so do it for th last time and thats it yeah.
eh eh.out of th blue,i like playing basketball.hahahaha. ^ ^ its totally random.
we played during p.e last thursday and ain must be so joyful upon getting hang bao from our p.e teacher because she scored a goal.
as for dance,im enjoying it eventhough its tiring for me but just for th sake of speech day which will be my last performance in that school.
life has been hectic for me but its okay.im going to make sure that its worth it.

im done.sorry boyfriend a.k.a my daily blog reader for privating my blog yesterday.
hahaha,i forgot to unprivate it.alright,here you go.
urm,there's 'Titanic' tonight - great.

I pray that something picks me up and sets me down in your warm arms

2010-02-26T21:35:00.001+08:00

usually every friday morning,i'd be feeling sleepy in class but this morning with th compliments that i got till now it brightens my day.hehehe ^ ^
i know it wasnt a big deal to any of you but for me,it'd be a good start.
will update more tomorrow or sunday.
anyway,im feeling bored at home since everyone seems to be moody since this afternoon.
i shall wait for my love to finish his work and will text him then till we both fall asleep.yay*
mwah.

2010-02-23T21:39:00.003+08:00

euphoric(=
th word that i could describe my feelings for today.i totally had an awesome day even though i was kinda of fatigue after that but i guess it was worth it.
anyway,i like th assembly today.haa~ zaman mak bapak kite.thanks to th performers,they made me miss malay dance.i forgot when was th last time i did malay dance.
alright after class i walked all th way under th scorching sun to boyf's house just to meet him.
what a nice girlfriend he has,right? ^ ^
so we rode on 198 and then 105 to his work place.we still had about an hour before he went off so we wandered around th botanic garden.sat right in front of th two swans for a few minutes which reminded me of th gift that i gave him.heh,but both swans seemed to be so itchy -.-' finally,he sent me to th bus stop and i took 174 back home.
yesss,i went there with my school uniform(!!!) which i knew i should've just get home and change for awhile.i was already exhausted then but i love today.
boyfriend even pampered me by tying my shoe laces,fanning me and carrying my bag.he said im his princess.
hehehe,thank yooou so much hor(= i loooveee yooou!
thats all and im done.cant wait for march~

All of the things that you wanna do
But make sure your love for me is true to you.

2010-02-21T23:12:00.003+08:00

I never thought that it be easy
Cause we both so distance now
And the walls are closing in on us
And we're wondering how

addicted to down to earth by justin bieber.
school starts tomorrow.oh gosh,im just not in th mood but i want to keep myself busy.
and futhermore,there will be 2 tests.
sigh.
goodnight,xoxo.

2010-02-20T16:46:00.006+08:00

eng tuitor : atiqah,why you look grumpy today?
me : oh,nothing lah.
eng tuitor : fight with boyf is it?
me : *hush* (inside; how th hell this teacher knows im attached?!)

i was sick,my mood isnt changing at all and it gets even worse.
maybe my mood made me look grumpy.isnt this obvious?haa~
didnt i tell you yesterday that i need a hug?give me a hug and i'll be alright ^ ^
~~fuck him lah.~~i told him im having flu since last night and only one day,he could forget it.
too busy,right?hah,yarh.im currently counting th days we didnt meet after last fri.so its already 1 week.why dont you just make it 10 days or more?isnt that would be awesome?
okay,great.
alright so today both eng and math lesson werent that bored.as for eng,he really really really stressed out on how important eng is in O levels and so forth.idk how many times he repeated th same line over and over again but before that,we did on summary writing.
as for math,we did on algebra.it helped me to recall back some formulas for like quadratic eqns and others.heh,i aint that bad since i managed to tackle most of th questions.*yay!

oh yesss,structured class will commence this week.it's going be awesome because i really want to keep myself busy since he's superb busy too.i dont mind if it even ends at 1800.hah,but usually at most will be at 1730.im lucky that he called my name for math class but sadly,im under his class.i want my usual math class which is under mrs chong.
so for now,mon,thurs and fri im staying in school till late afternoon.whats next?urm.
oh yeah,will be having chem and geog test so im going to revise now.
im removing my tagboard since no one tags me which shows no one reading this blog.lol.
ive left my email so if there's anything just mail me,ya.
have a nice weekends readers! :)

apologies are often open ended
but this was better left unsaid.

2010-02-19T23:02:00.004+08:00

heyyyyy.currently no mood )=
im having flu and still wondering where do i get it from.
to make it worse,i've two ulcers at th back of my mouth.that hurts a lot.
no,no.th very worse is i miss khairul mubin bin mohd amin so much.it has been a week we didnt meet.*sigh
ive been sleeping early these days anyway and i didnt get to video call him.
he has been working till late night.why dont you just get th morning shift?! *sigh.
i'd be very contented if you quit your job sooner.i cant wait for march(=
followed mum to th barber to cut sibling's hair this afternoon.suddenly,my mum and th barber talked about silat and guess what?he insisted me to join silat back but different group which is under his.ive been wanting it since last year but since i decided to come back for sec 5,most probably i'll take up th lessons after O levels.
will see first.
fhew,th flag day is postpone to 17th April.it means ive to attend for math class tomorrow.
somehow,i miss my last year's math tuitor.i felt like not going.
will update more tomorrow or sunday.
where is boyf?im totally down now.*sigh
i need a hug.anyone?

2010-02-15T23:55:00.001+08:00

i felt totally shagged tonight.idk why.
so today went to grandm's house and she cooked nasi briyani for us.
reached there in th morning since dad needed to pass some ingredients that grandm forgot to buy.urm,so i spent my time there only watching tv and i was about to sleep when dad told us that we're going home.it was nothing much there.
i <3 yesterday especially with my mum even though sometimes she can get on my nerves.
hahaha.so if you read have read my plurk,you would have know.my family and i went w.c.p in th afternoon.it was damn packed.what do you expect?its public holiday.so we were lucky that we had a place to sit.dad bought a kite and he thought us to play.how i wish i was born earlier.hahaha.because i dont have to be a spoiled brat.i should say most things are now instant made.mum started to tell us that she used to make kites with only newspaper.
flying a kite wasnt that easy but once it reaches th top,it'd be fun.hahaha.
boyf! lets play kite soon,ok? =)
before that,mum and i were looking at people around us and guess what we did?
hahaha,we gave comments about them.i was like,'mum! enough eh!'.
oh yes! finally,i met with baby fadhil.hehehe.its a must for me to meet him at least twice in a month.so yeah,his family came there too.stayed there till 1930 and had dinner around there.

wth.th holidays are ending and thats fast.i wonder when is my next long long hoildays.
i bet it will be on june.grrrr.
alright,a short post will do.im running out of words now.
photos are on fb.
goodnight(:

2010-02-14T15:22:00.004+08:00

then put me on a love song.

yippie! no school for 2 days.(=
so now currently just sitting at home.is th swimming complex open?
i want to go for a swim so badly.boyf is working anyway.*sigh
i dont think its open.urm,so i guess im going to finish up my chem homework at night maybe.

now,i could fully understand th chapter and all thanks to my chem teacher who personally coach me on last thurs.hehehe.
this week,had 3 tests and all were on th same day.how pathethic was that?
and last friday,i had to write 2 malay essays.grrr,it was totally tiring.my brain is dead now.
hahaha.2 tests are coming soon - phy and geog.
last thurs,i skip dance prac since i had a massive headache but i did come just to take attendance.after that,i went to revise my math for th test next day.
yess,finally i had a breakfast with boyf.it had been a long time we didnt had breakfast together )= that was last wed.thanks for th treat,love.
last tues was half day for my school and we celebrated chinese new year.
th concert wasnt that bad but it was draggy.especially th lion dance.i liked th singing performance by a teacher ft a student(tong hua!) and th first part of lion dance only.
hahaha,fahmy texted me while watching it till th concert ended.
there will be another half day for my school which is on th 23rd Feb.
yippie! but i bet it would just be a normal day for me.nothing much diff.

yesterday,i went tuition as usual.i really felt sleepy during eng lesson and so did faiz.
hahaha.we did comprehension for english.math - th two guys left me alone )=
math tuitor wasnt there too but we still did something.revised on linear graphs.
and i went blank because it was only a few months and ive forgot all th formula.
i was laughing at myself.lol.
anyway,i know we're quite close there but im not attached to him ok.hahaha.
funny eh you all.after class,met mum at imm and had lunch at bk.*yummy
stayed at home then th whole night.

its chinese new year and valentine's day today and tomorrow is total defence day.
so to all my chinese friends out there,'Happy Chinese New Year!' *roar
hahaa,since its th year of tiger.
i dont really celebrate valentine's day since last year.ehem,*insert reason.
idiot,idiot,idiot.
but but,i will listen to fahmy's advice.'dont pray for them for karma to hit them and just let them be.'
okay,forget it.im so not going to boast about it.so im going to pray for them have a happy ending.and anyway,im blissed with my life now.

every day is a valentine's day so do treasure those times you had with your love ones.
alright,do have a long and nice weekend readers.
i gotta go now.instead of going swimming,im going to west coast.grrr.
anything will do! hahaa.
xoxo.

2010-02-07T15:57:00.003+08:00

i'll get back to books after this post.boyf wants me to be like her.
this particular girl who sat next to me yesterday for tuition.
alright so for english we did situational writing and then had a break.
after break was math.we revised back on fractions,decimals and percentage.
urm,about this particular girl,she has done (should i say) half of the revision book.
hahaha.im not laughing because of her started revision earlier because ive started too but may be i should be like her who consistently revise till the end of the year.
even my math tuitior said,'its the consistency'.haha,but i get distracted easily.how?
hahaha.
after tuition,didnt i tell you i was suppose to meet boyf?but we didnt since mum wanted to meet me and we did a lil shopping.at night,went to cousin's house as there was a birthday party for both my nephew and niece.alright,i was irritated by them but nvm.called boyf to come down and meet me and (yay!) we did.
so yeah.that was what i did yesterday.
i will end this post with some photos taken.

take care readers.
i miss you,boyfiend )=

2010-02-05T22:06:00.003+08:00

oh hiiiiiiiii ! hehehe =)
i feel so good today except for having cramps this morning.so before i proceed on,i'll like to thank cika and mey for sacrifising their time to accompany me.
alright.i hope tomorrow will be much more better because im meeting you,dear.yay!

firstly,of course because of our 2nd Annivesary.we managed to go through another year.
from friends - close friends(some thought we were already couples) - "steady"(he told me to!) - officially mine from 050307.
somehow,i love that date and do you remember that you try to relate something with these numbers?it was in your blog but sadly,you've deleted it.
we laughed,cried,fought and all together before.we went through a lot and look at us now.
we're still holding on.we shared a lot of memories too.i wouldnt want to say a lot.all i want is just to be with you.we're apart but you still have my heart.
i love you,khairul mubin bin mohd amin.happy 2nd annivesary(:

urm,so mum and i just got home a few hours ago from the briefing and it ended 2 hours earlier.mum only met with my math teacher.i told mum not to because she'll will hear the same thing which is 'im quiet in class and is attentive in class'.hahaha =P
thank god theres no malay structured because i really had bad cramps )=
so tomorrow theres mendaki and will be meeting boyfriend after class.yay!
i better get some rest now.my backbone is killing me.
goodnight readers.

look how far we've come my baby
we might took the long way
we knew we'd get there someday.

2010-02-01T20:52:00.003+08:00

hey there,especially to cika.hahaha,if you know what i mean.
whoa,its has come to febuary and (yay!) this friday is 2 years ann.
i will post about that soon.so now what?hahaha.
alright,firstly i got back my phy test and i passed(= but still not satisfied with the marks.
come on,i know i can.
english lesson was awesome.they shared about thier crush they had and (uh-oh!) the whole class knew about it.hehehe,cakap sini habis sini eh.anyway,most of them were from pri school so yeah.i <3 recess time.mey and i laughed at boyf's text.you really think far,huh.hahaha,cute or what.so you better prepare for your future.*wink*.stayed back in school with mey,cika,ain,siti and shima today till 1630.
oh yar.last sat,i had tuition as usual and i was the only girl from hkss in sec 5.nevermind,im used to it.so i was already rushing since i dont want to get any trouble with my new eng teacher which i see her like a monster.hahaha,but on that day the guys from my class and myself were elated because we got new teachers for both english and math.(yay!)
the english tuitor was late for class and somehow,he's weird.yup,totally.i couldnt stop giggling.he kept ending his sentence with 'etc...etc...etc...'.okay best,my math tuitor who taught me when i was in sec 3 still remember me.hehehe.
urm,alright so this wednesday is e-learning day=no school.
oh gosh,i miss boyf a lot )= and this fri,we cant meet since he's working and i'll be in school till night.i need you!
okay,i will post a proper one soon.i totally have no ideas now.
take care ~

back through the past
i'd whisper in your ear
oh darling,i wish you were here.

2010-01-29T22:23:00.003+08:00

another week has gone by and it has come to the end of january.
hahaha,i didnt even realise that today's date is 29th.my dearest mey who reminded me.
oh,it's still long so dont bother it and i bet one of the mid year papers will fall on that day.
ive been feeling totally worn out these days espcially when cca has started.
sadly,i wont be performing for the upcoming concert but on the brighter side,hehehe.
stay tune if you want to know.and yar,i started to feel sleepy in class but still awake especially during english class and my blabby friends around me.im still thinking to do about my crush or the teacher for my oral presentation next monday.
had been having tests this week and yeah,i know how will my results look like.
anyway,so far has been okay.everything's just going with flow.
but...but...right now,i aint in mood and idk when will this end.
will update more tomorrow if im free.
goodnight,xoxo.

with every worthless word we get more far away
the distance between us makes it so hard to stay
but nothing lasts forever

2010-01-25T19:41:00.003+08:00

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!
);
they're part of the list.things that i miss.things like your funny little laugh,the way you smile or the way we kiss.
2 years coming.(=

2010-01-23T21:16:00.003+08:00

it had been a long week for me.ive yet to rest.
oh no,its already 3rd of week of school.time flies real fast,you see.
and less in 10 months,im sitting for O levels.okay,lets not talk about it first.

today,i was rushing to school for the cca open house.well,everything was thumbs up.
anyway,dance club received more students to join us than the previous year.yay!
i sweat a lot today.ive uploaded the photos in my fb.
parents picked us up and had our lunch at Aiman.reached home - changed - off to J.E library with lil sister and Ben.hahaha,whenever i got to solve a question,i would praise myself.heh(=
then,we made our way to IMM to get my assesment books and he wanted to survey something.he had his lunch and i ate again.haha,body still maintain.
and he sent me back home.i didnt really go home.i followed my parents to Sheng Siong.
it had been months i didnt go there and its like totally new.lol.
so now finally,im back home.
tomorrow,visiting grandm.i miss cousins! )=

school had been average.well,one problem after another but the good thing about me,ive never get distracted with these problems with studies like Ben said.
i cant be bothered with it sometimes.we're all grown up.grrr.
if you've been following my plurk,hah.ive no comments about it.may be some of you would know who/what im talking about.i feel neglected too at times but ive my O levels.
more tests are coming this week and im so going to prepare for it.
alright then,im done.
anyone here,do you think i should delete my blog?hrm.

I keep on wondering if you were even feeling me.
I keep on wondering if this was even meant to be.
I keep on wondering if everything you said was true.
I keep on wondering if you were really coming through.

2010-01-15T21:45:00.002+08:00

it was only the second week of school and so far,i still could manage it.
i still love math no matter how hard it is.hahaha,my all time favourite.
those stories which my eng teachers printed for me really inspired me a lot.hopefully,i could be like one of them.no one knows,right?and nothing is impossible.so its the matter of i want to do it or not.*ehem* heh =)
anyway,there's something which makes me feel somehow guilty.on the second thought,i dont think its totally my fault.*sigh*
why?i let you think because i know you're matured enough to find the answer.i dont think i should eleborate about this.
have i posted about the O'level results?NO,right?hah.so last tuesday,the results were released and i could sense that my malay would be a B4/C5 but then it was a B3.
it was unexpected.well,i'll be retaking it of course and im so going to give all out for it.
so congrats to those who had done well and of course to my dearest boyfriend too.he was too elated till he hit my dearest friend's leg.on his behalf,sorry Mey.hahaha ^ ^
to those who think they did badly,well it isnt the end of world.get over it,yeah.
alright,enough about it.
oh yes,ive gotten my f&n coursework question and no.1 seems to be straight foward so i chose it.no more delaying of coursework.
what else eh?
hehehe,its exactly 3 more weeks from now to *you'll know soon*.to those who knows,shhh!
hah.i got to go now.wait,sorry if i did not update regularly(=
dont worry,there's my plurk.
i miss you,love. )=

sampai nanti tetap memegang tangannya.

2010-01-09T19:24:00.002+08:00

school had been average and i still could manage for now.
i know as days go by it will get tougher and hopefully,i can go through it.
yes,like all the teachers who had been repeating it over and over again that N levels and O levels are totally different.ok,not really totally.
so this week,many things were squeezed into my brain and since it weekends,lets have a break.anyway,ive done my homeworks with the help from boyfriend.thanks love. =D
went NP yesterday and i wasnt really enthu to the courses that were showed to me.
thought of going to look at the course which ive been wanting for it since sec 3 but love was already waiting for me for so long.its okay then.
today,i was the rose among the thorns as usual among the sec 5s.there will be diagnostic test next week.damn,more tests are coming soon.
well,its one day left and he has been asking me how my gut feeling is.i dont wish to say anything because i dont want at the end of the day,it will turn the oppisite.all i can do is to pray for you.at least,you've been there and given your best.i know how you feel cause i felt it before and im feeling it again since im taking my O level Malay results too.hah,but i can see how me result's going to be like.miracles will only happen once.teehee ^ ^ all the best to those who are taking their result this monday.
urm,stay tune for more updates.im going to watch 'Enchanted'(cerite 2 tahun lalu) with siblings now and anyway,ive no idea where has boyfriend gone to.

Everybody wants to live happily ever after
Everybody wants to know true love is true

2010-01-05T18:45:00.003+08:00

happy ~~(2 years and 10 months)~~ 23rd monthsary,baby!
thanks for spending your free time with me today.i totally had fun with you.
haha,you and your blur mind.omg,i couldnt stop laughing.
oh yes,give me some time first and i promise to start my revisions.i know you're so eager to help me.
i just love you so much and i hope you feel the same way too.we've come this far and hopefully,we wont stop here.
to me,it doesnt really matter how long we've been together.the memories-laughters,tears,fights that we've been through all along is important.
since you're no longer in school,
"you're on my mind, you're in my heart
it doesn't matter where we are
we'll be alright,
even if we're miles apart."
hehe.i love you always,boyfriend.

anyway,school today was slightly better since some lessons started already.
alright,thats all for now.im running out of words.
take care.

2010-01-04T20:37:00.001+08:00

school was preety awesome but its quite boring too.
went to school with Idir and we had to walk in the rain.hahaha.
first day of school already wet.thanks to the rain and we were lazy too to use our umbrella.
assembled in the i.s.h and as for my class,very special.line up in 3.haha.
then we went into our classroom.teachers will split us into 2 groups since my class consists of 59 students.after tempreture taking,we made our way to the auditorium.we did nothing much for the first few hours since our both form and co-form were busy.
wah,Cika and Siti made me laughed non-stop.did administrative stuffs then had school tour since its a brand new school.ended at 1330 today and boyfriend picked me up.yay!
i love you ah.

anyway,its going to be another year of hell for me this year.hopefully,i could cope with everything.boyfriend should be my reminder.haa,so he could remind me to do revisions now.oh yar,O'level results are next week so goodluck to those who will be taking.
i really hope i get a better grade for my O'level Malay.
alright,i better do whatever i suppose to do now.
tomorrow,23rd Monthsary baby<3
take care.

2010-01-03T15:12:00.003+08:00

*screams*
school starts tomorrow and i aint ready for all the assignments especially coursework.
i'll feel awkward too since its first time im going to school by bus in the early morning.
nevermind.ive got someone to accompany me or should i say 2.heh.
ive lots to update but idk where to start.urm,let me see.

Thursday 311209
* went to TreeTop Walk.
it was really awesome and had fun adventuring.yes,it was totally tiring especially when you need to climb up.i want to go again but maybe at the end of the year?
hehe.

Friday 1st January 2010
Happy New Year!
* picnic at E.C.P
woke up early and we reached there at about 10am.the weather was just fine.
stayed there till 1700 and it was just right on time cause it started to rain.

Saturday 020110
* geylang/grandm's crib
had breakfast at geylang and had real fun with family especially the youngest brother.
he was so silly.i laughed out so loud because of his clumsy.
everyone there saw what happened.omg,adik.haha.
off to grandm's crib till 1730.

today,i should just rest at home since ive not been feeling so good and school is going to start tomorrow.it wasnt a good start on the new year cause i was real mad with someone.
i shouldve just keep quiet about it.thanks to you and now im having a
slight fever + heartache = *shows sad face*
you think im okay.its best if you leave me alone and let me have my own time now.
maybe to you it wasnt a big deal but sorry,not for me.ok,enough about it.
alright,all photos had been uploaded at fb so feel free to see.lol.
i better have my rest now.
take care(;

Jikalau bahagia bersamamu hanyalah untuk sementara waktu,
Aku pilih derita merinduimu.