yes,that was what happened yesterday.i was brought to the hospital and really,i'd like to thank Khairul Mubin for helping and being there for me.not to forget all the those who were there too.

all i knew was i thought i was about to die.yes,i was at edge of dying.

the pain was just excruciating and the next minute,i couldn't feel anything.my eyes were shut too.idk if i'm feeling better right now because the pain is still there.

sometimes,i think he should just leave me there and wait till my parents come and see my conditions.idk what the hell are they thinking.i feel upset about it till now.

whenever i fall sick,you won't bother your daughter.should i even called myself your daughter?

i have a backbone problem too but they don't even want to follow up with my next appointment.

we went there for only twice.hello,i don't want to be paralysis(touch wood).

i have something for my future and i'm only 18.if you think its a normal,you shouldn't have make babies in the first place.so much of your responsibilities -.-'

may be even if i died,you'd be much happier because i won't put much burden on you and everyone else.yes i know i did put a lot of trouble including with my boyfriend and my friends especially when i was in secondary school.i'm sorry for that.

if only you had bring me to the doctor earlier,i'd be much better now but nah,it's getting worse.

i'm trying to hold on even if its killing me.i'll try to keep everything to myself this time.

you scolded me for giving a lot of trouble to the others.fine,that's enough.that would be the last time.if the pain were to come again,i hope God will take me away.

:'< it hurts...totally hurt.sigh............